Hormonal ramblings and feeling a little blue.

I really need to start tracking my moods better, I used to keep a mood journal, along with my food, but in the spirit of not being obsessive with my food, I stopped journaling food. Anyhoo, yesterday I was starving most of the day, like really stomach growling angrily kind of hungry. Then today my mood is kind of crappy, feeling a little weepy and sad. So, I guess what I'm saying is that I need to try to figure out the pattern here, so I can be better equipped to deal with my craziness when it comes to hormones.

I'm feeling sad, obviously for Jacquie, I just can't get her and her family out of my head. It makes me so sad for her and for her husband, her sister, it's just all so tragic. Today is the anniversary of my father's death, he died 32 years ago. When I stop and think about how much time has gone by, I can't help but get a little overwhelmed. My dad was a great man, I loved him dearly, but sadly I didn't really know him. I was 15 when he died. Later on, there were things about him that I could have found out from his siblings, but I was too young to understand that someday I would want to know more about the man who was my father. He was one of 9 children and all but one are gone. My aunt who is still alive is in really poor health and when I see her, she cries when we try to talk about the old days. It's sad.

I'm proud that I have taken the steps to get healthier and hope that my children and I will get to know each other in a way that I see my friends knowing their parents. At 15 I did not comprehend what the loss of my parents really would mean to me in 10, 15, 20, 30 years, how could I, I was a child. But today, I remember my dad, he died on Mother's Day which for some reason really helped me cope, since I felt like mom and dad were finally together and well.

Those that we love are such a gift, I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful family and such a great community of friends here! Have a great day, it's almost Friday.
Hugs,
T

Please keep Jacquie and her family in your thoughts!

Oh my, my heart aches for our blog sister Jacquie (http://jax0120.blogspot.com/) and her family. Tragically her father and her brother-in-law were killed in a motorcycle accident yesterday. I cannot imagine the pain that she and her family are in right now. Her husband was there and had just gone through the intersection were the accident occurred. Please keep her and her family in your thoughts and prayers. We never know what is in store for us and the ones we love. My wish for her is that she find comfort in knowing how very much we care about her. Big hug and lots of love sent to Jacquie.
T

Mother's Day was great!

This is my little family. This was the picture on our Christmas card last year, it read "Stayin afloat" we were out of our home still after flooding from Hurricane Ike. My children are the boy in the white striped sweat shirt( he's 13) and the boy sitting on top of the boat in black (he's 16). The other two are my step children he is 19, she is 14. I love being a mom, it has always been what I am proudest of and what I feel defines me. I'm so very proud of my boys. Being a step mom has been very rewarding too. We have had our moments, but we love each other and I know that we are a family now and nothing can ever change that.



I had a wonderful weekend, the kids waited on me, they showered me with gifts and they truly made me feel very special. I'm lucky, I have a wonderful husband and great kids. Yesterday we spent the day with my siblings and all of our kids. We had boiled crawfish and they were delicious.



I forgot to post my weight loss last week, how did that happen? Anyway, I'm down 20 pounds and ready for my fill next week. I hope all of you who are Mothers had a special day yesterday.



Oh, one other bit of news, I spoke with Miss Vickie this weekend on the phone in case you don't know Vickie yet you can check out her blog (http://thequeenbeeslapbandlife.blogspot.com/). Anyway Vickie is my roommate for Chicago, I'm so excited. She sounded really sweet and I know we are going to have a blast. When I first spoke, she said "Awww, you have a cute Southern accent!" That made me laugh, because of course I think I sound completely middle of the road. Just wanted to share that, I am really excited about meeting all of you gals. Happy Monday!

Hugs,

T

Bring your own craziness, ala Drazil:


BYOC Friday! For any of my new followers this means we answer 5 questions you wouldn't normally blog about – some fun, some serious – in an effort to get to know each other better. You’ll see BYOC blogs all over blogland today so join the party if you wish!


1. Do you have any nicknames? (Thanks for this question Joey)• Yes, my given name is Theresa
so, people call me Tessie (which is also my stage name and alter ego), T-Rose, T, Miss-T, Mom and my dear husband calls me sweet mama.

2. What was your “last straw”? The incident/situation that made you decide to get a lap band or commit to losing weight via any plan this time?(This is for anyone on a weight loss journey and is from Heather who will recently be lap-banded.)• Well, when I started this lap band journey I was about 40 pounds from my heaviest weight, I had previously lost 80 pounds and was on my way back up again. When I was at my heaviest, my last straw moment was very clear: My 2 young sons and I were on our 2nd week of evacuation after Hurricane Rita, we were at a shopping center and when I got in the car, I thought my purse was behind me...sadly it was my back fat, I freaked out and my youngest son said Mom, don't worry, we're in Houston... and begins singing this cheesey jingle for the Texas Lapiroscopy Center (Dr. Spiegel knows what you're going through....at the Texas Lapiroscopy Center!) I could have died. That prompted my last big Weight Watchers loss, this time I just realized that I did not have it in me to lose a big chunk of weight again only to gain it back. I was completely worn out from the struggle, so I was having lunch for my sister's birthday with a big group of girlfriends, feeling like crap, looking like crap and I just decided at the table and announced it then, that was in October 09. So that day I called the Bariatric Center and read Amy W's blog for the first time the rest, as they say, is history, 5 months later I got my Pearl!


3. What’s your favorite joke or funny story? (This is from Sandy – she needs some laughter to start the weekend and requested this one.)* I don't have a real favorite, but I'm a big fan of the ever popular blonde jokes. (no offense to my light haired friends) In a high school civics class, they were discussing the qualifications for becoming President of the United States. The requirements are pretty simple. The candidate must be a natural born citizen and at least 35 years old. A blonde girl in the class piped up and began complaining about how unfair it was to require the candidate to be a natural born citizen. In her opinion, that made it impossible for many qualified people to run for the office. She went on and on, wrapping up her argument with "What makes a natural born citizen more qualified to be President than one born by C-Section?"

4. If you could be a TV dinner – what flavor would you be?* I would be a delicious chicken pot pie!


5. The question we do every week so everyone can be a little famous without having to do an official blog award….what blog or comment stuck with you or spoke to you the most this week and why? Well when I was having my melt down about having my fill canceled, Cindylew's comment made me cry....she said I was gracious and grown up. That just made me feel, well a little of both. I was seriously moved by the amount of comments I got in my moment of sadness. Thank you all so much.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Mother's Day weekend. You guys are the best.
Big Hug.
T

Thanks for all of your support!

Thank you so much for all of the wonderful supportive comments yesterday. I appreciate you all more than you know. I feel better today and am going to look at this in a positive way. I was apprehensive about the fill so this gives me a little more time to assess the need. I do have restriction still, as yesterday I was a little upset and a little too hungry at lunch....stuck. Man that hurts. So, I know my band is there. I know that this is for the rest of my life. This year I have to embrace a little patience. So, Pearl and I are okay with waiting a little while for a fill.
I hope everyone has great day. Again, thanks.
Hugs,
T

No fill for me!

I just got off the phone with my doc's office and no fill for me! Sure, I cried...but I'm okay now.

My fill was scheduled for 3:45 today, I have a visit from an IRS agent at 2:00 today. There is an emergency with a bariatric patient from a small town 2 hours away, she is in need of emergency surgery so they wanted to move me up to 2:00, no can do. My doc is out all next week, so no fill until May 17. The receptionist was so nice and apologetic, I know if it was me in need, I'd want to be seen no matter who was waiting on a fill. So, there you have it. I'm not sure, but I don't think I'm finished crying about this.

In other news, tonight is date night. That trumps a pity party any day.

Happy Wednesday!

T

Fill er up please!

The receptionist called me and moved up my fill appointment by one day. So, I get a fill on Wednesday. She said that my Doc likes to do fills on Wednesday, in case you are too tight. That made me feel pretty good that he wants to make sure you can get in to see him if you're overfilled.

I am feeling a little conflicted about getting a fill. I am feeling so good and am losing at a decent rate. I feel like if I make good food choices, I'm satisfied easily and stay satisfied. I am getting hungrier between meals, but that too is dependent on what I'm eating. I'm really afraid of being too tight. I have read some blogs were people think that PBing and sliming are a right of passage. I have no desire to go there! And I definitely don't want to have trouble with my water. I drink lots of water and want to continue with that.

So, those are my feelings about the fill. I believe that I need one, but I'm just scared. I hope it's uneventful and that my weight loss will speed up a little.

I had a wonderful weekend, filled with good friends and a little too much wine, but a good weekend indeed. Happy Monday guys.

Hugs,

T