My Nemesis...

Yep, this little bitty pill is causing me so much trouble. It's my thyroid pill, that I have to take first thing in the morning, on and empty stomach. Okay, well first thing in the morning, I have trouble getting water down, but lately, I've been even more tight than usual in the morning. I have gotten stuck on this little pill 3 times in a week and thrown it up. But then, what do you do after that? I don't know if some of it may have gone down, I don't want to take another one. I wait for about 30 minutes before I give in and go throw up. It's frustrating and so...I'm more nervous than usual about taking the pill in the morning, which in turn leads to more tightness, you get the picture...it's frustrating. My doctor says to take the pill on an empty stomach and take it with plenty of water. Here is my compromise. I break the pill in half, take a tiny, tiny sip of water, I wait ten minutes, then take the other half, then wait ten more minutes, then drink a cup of warm water. If all that goes down, then I drink another cup of water and wait thirty minutes and have my coffee. It's really getting on my nerves. I take a few pills during the day, all of which are much bigger than that one, all of which don't present a problem for me. Oy!

My weekend went well, still no drinking. I have been having a delicious mocktail instead, I have sparkling water, lime and diet cranberry juice cocktail. It's refreshing and I have it in a fancy glass and don't feel like I'm missing out on anything. Still, my weight is hanging at the same spot. I would like to see some downward trending, but no such luck, yet.

Friday my son had a track meet and placed 1st in the 300 Hurdles and 3rd in the 110 Hurdles, it was very exciting, he gets his athletic abilities from...Hell, I don't know where? His Dad is the least athletic man on the planet and I am good at watching sporting events and eating at the concession stand, does that count for anything?

I hope you all have a great week and for those of you still fighting the cold, it's HOT down South and it's only gonna get worse, but it's beautiful, tomorrow I'll post some pics of my Hubby's fabulous flowers and shrubs, all a bloom!

Big Hugs!
T

I'm over half way there!

I am 22 days into my no alcohol for Lent stint. I'm not joking when I say it hasn't been that bad at all! I'm pretty impressed with myself. I am looking forward to enjoying a glass of wine at Easter, and I'm pretty sure that after this much time, it won't take much to make me feel it, lol!


I'm surprised I haven't really lost any weight. I think my pants fit better, I don't have a muffin top with my smallest jeans. My weight is so frustrating, it fluctuates daily, this morning it was 206. I just really want to get below 205. I haven't dipped below that in a year at least! Although I'm happy with my weightloss and the fact that I haven't gained any weight in a year, it's frustrating, because this is not the place I want to stop. I don't know what I want my goal weight to be, but I'm certain it starts with a 1 instead of a 2. How hard should it be to lose 7 pounds? Evidently, pretty darn hard for me. I've cut out alcohol and thought, hey, I'm gonna lose 10 pounds...not. I know I need to exercise, that part of this sucks. I do log my food, and most days, I'm between 12 and 1400 calories. I need all of you BOOBS to form a circle, hold hands and chant, or something. I really want to lose 7 pounds. That's all I can think of right now and that's my immediate goal. I want to lose 7 pounds. After that, then I'll re-assess things.


Okay, happy Wednesday, now start chanting!


Big Hugs!


T

A Saturday of Girl Scout Cookies....

Leads to a Sunday of PB's which leads to a Monday of liquids and pain. I'm about to celebrate my 2nd anniversary with the band and I can tell you that there are somethings I know for sure. One thing I know for sure is that if I binge (well, a band version of a binge)...I will pay for it the next day in the form of supper tightness and PBing! I think this is why: if I binge...it's because my hormones are prompting me to and that shift in the hormonal balance always results in said tightness and PBing. So, yesterday, I puked so many times I lost count. My esophagus is sore, I'm sore between my shoulder blades, I have a sore throat and last night I kept dreaming about being strangled. So....what do you think I will learn from this? If the past is any indication of the future, not a whole lot! Damn, it sucks to be stupid.
On a different note, I had a good weekend with my boys and John and his daughter had a great weekend at the hunting camp bonding. I still have not had any alcohol, and I haven't missed it. My weight sadly still is hanging at the same spot, but I'm okay with that, I guess. I
I hope you all had a great weekend and have a great week to come.
Big Hugs!
T

Monday...again!

Hey there! How was your weekend? I hope it was great. I had a good weekend, very productive. My boys were at their Dad's house, but my step-daughter was with us and we had a good weekend. I cleaned house, John worked in the yard, I tackled the infamous basket of mismatched socks, hosted a party and still did not drink any alcohol. Not too shabby! It hasn't even been hard for me to not drink, I'm finding that hard to believe, but it's true. Saturday night we had a party, we had lots of good food, everyone else had drinks and I had sparkling water with a dash of cranberry juice, it looked like a Cape Cod, it tasted good and I didn't miss drinking. I did pretty good food wise Saturday night, but on Sunday, I ate way too much. I don't know what drove that, other than the fact that there were some left over brownies and I indulged. Anyway, true to form, after a day of indulgence...my band slammed shut today, I'm tighter than tight, and have already PB'd 3 times today. When will I ever learn? Probably not anytime soon, since I'm about 2 years out and haven't caught on yet, lol! I'm ready for my boys to come home today, I miss them. I don't have to cook tonight, since I made the biggest pot of Jambalaya on Saturday, so they can have left overs tonight. I'm looking forward to watching the Voice....darn, I'm hooked. I hope you all have a great Monday and a great week ahead.


Big Hugs!


T

And the Oscar goes to...

Hormonal Imbalance...


Yep, story of my life these days. I'm a veritable font of mood swings and irrational behavior. I'm 49. I am a mess. I have thyroid issues and a host of other hormone related things going on. I don't like the way I feel for about half of the month and I can't help myself. It's probably one of the leading causes of arguments with my dear friends and my dear husband. I feel sorry for my family and my friends, but hell....I feel sorry for me too. It sucks feeling out of sync.

So, as I sat in my bed last night bawling at every acceptance speech on the Academy Awards, it dawned on my that I should get some sort of statue too....oh the drama!

Happy Monday....the mood is swinging in the right direction today and I made it through the first weekend without drinking. I feel good about that. My eating has been pretty good too. With the exception of last night. I ate a roof panel for a gingerbread house. That sounds so sad.

Big Hugs!
T

Bring it Friday!

Hey y'all, it's Friday and I'm glad. I'm ready for a busy weekend. I plan to do some spring cleaning and get my house all nice and tidy. I plan to prepare some meals for the week ahead and have a productive weekend. I will not be drinking any wine however. I haven't missed it yet, but it hasn't been the weekend yet...so, I'll let you know how that goes. My eating has been going pretty well. I need to exercise...man, do I sound like a broken record or what. I just need to get my butt up and go!

I don't feel much like blogging, I don't know why, but it's true. I'm kind of sad in fact. I've had a disagreement with a good friend of mine. I don't like to fight, although this friend would say different. I'm having a hard time, because when I argue with someone I care about, it stays with me for hours, days, sometimes weeks. I can't shake it and I go over and over the conversation in my head. I try to figure out how we got to this point, what I did wrong, what I should have done differently, why this happened. I don't like this feeling, at all. My friend is very special to me, she and I have been through good times and bad, she has been my biggest cheerleader and my harshest critic. I feel like I have let her down, because, no matter what....I want her to know that I love and support her. I just don't agree with her on this issue and a few others. Does it mean we can't be friends anymore? I don't think so, but we are both opinionated and well, we both feel hurt and we both feel right. I don't know quite how to handle the situation. I do know that our differences seem to be getting greater and greater, we can't seem to agree on much of anything anymore. That makes me even more sad. I just hope that we can work things out and agree to disagree. I don't want this disagreement to turn into something bigger.

Here's to a good weekend...
Happy Friday!
T

Post Mardi Gras post...

Hi there! Well, the Mardi Gras season is officially over. Today there are remnants of the celebration everywhere. Beads, trash, hangovers...you get the picture. And today is Ash Wednesday, with is the end of Mardi Gras, the beginning of Lent. I grew up Catholic and we always observed Lent. We did so by giving up something that was crowding our lives, that got in the way of our spiritual growth. As a child, I would give up sweets or gum because, as a child...what can really be getting in the way of your spiritual growth, right? As I got older, I started doing things for others, like doing volunteer work or helping out someone less fortunate than me. I haven't really done anything special for Lent in several years, for whatever reason, I've been lax. This year, I've given a bit of thought about the concept of Lent, about simplifying, de-cluttering the soul, if you will. I've decided that I'm going to abstain from alcohol for Lent. I love wine and I drink it often. I think it's something that I've grown to depend on for many things...to relax after a hard day, to escape when I just don't want to deal, the list could go on. So, here goes. I'm a little worried, because I'm a very social person, we entertain alot. But, I'm just going to have to entertain without a cocktail in my hand.

I'm going to leave you with pics from our Mardi Gras costume ball. We went as the entertainment (lounge singers) and the Captain and First Officer of the Costa Concordia Cruise ship. Probably in bad taste, but we did have a good time. I hope all is going well with you guys. Take care!
Big Hugs!
T

John, me, Ginger and Mark

Me and Ginger...seaweed and shrimp in our hair.