Day of Silence...

Rock? Hard Place?

I'm stuck between them.    It's been more than a year since I've had an adjustment to my band.  The last time I went in was to get 1/2 cc put back in after having 1cc taken out prior to that.  I have been just going along... some days good, some days bad, as far as the band goes.  My band is very fickle and hormonal changes wreak havoc on my band.  It seems that half of every month I can eat well, the other half I have trouble with liquids. 

Anyway, on Thanksgiving day, I got stuck, first bite of food and I spent most of the day sick  I had trouble with liquids even.  My band was so irritated that I had trouble with everything, even liquids for about 10 days to follow.  So, a couple of days ago, I finally had enough and called to schedule an unfill.  The next morning I wake up and my band is all loosey goosey again! WTF? How can that happen?  I stressed over it all day yesterday and today and finally, I canceled the appointment.  Now, I just don't know if that was the right thing to do or not.

Here's the deal.  I have been at the same spot weight wise for a year.  I've gotten pretty comfortable with this spot, evidently.  I'm happy that I'm not gaining, I wish I was losing, but I'm not devastated to be sitting at this spot.  So....here is my dilemma. I know that many times my band is just too tight and that it won't allow me to make the healthiest choices, food wise.  I also know that after a period of my band being too tight, I feel desperate, like "man I can finally eat something, and who knows what tomorrow will bring, I better eat today!"  I feel like, if I could consistently make better choices, without fear of pain and PB, that I might actually do that.  I also feel this overwhelming fear that if I get even the tiniest bit out, I'll eat like a pig and gain all my weight back.  I don't know what the answer is. 

So, I'm at a spot where I need to make a decision about my band and myself.  Am I willing to make a change? Am I willing to put the work in that I once did?  I've gotten pretty lazy.  I don't know...but, I do know that if nothing changes...nothing will change.

That's it.

Big Hugs!
T

Great weekend!!!

What a wonderful weekend it was, I'm so glad I got to spend time with Vickie and Jacquie and our sweet patient husbands, we had a great time! The weather was perfect, the food was amazing, the company was even better.  Only problem was that an entire Fraternity decided to stay in the same hotel as us and poor  Vickie got sick.  I'm so glad that we were able to get together, I miss them already and I'm ready for the next visit.

 

Here's a quick recap:

We met at the hotel around one, walked around the Quarter looking for a restaurant, but we were off a bit, so we settled on one we stumbled upon, ate lunch, met Super Man, had cocktails on Bourbon Street, freshened up, caught a cab, went to dinner, had more drinks, listened to jazz, enjoyed wonderful conversation, danced a little, laughed a LOT...lather, rinse, repeat!

 

All in all a fabulous weekend with some fabulous friends.  On Saturday Vicky met us at Cafe' Du Monde for beignets and cafe' au lait, it was great to meet her, although it was a short visit.  She is as sweet as she seems on her blog and she looks amazing!!! 

 

I'm shocked sometimes at the friendships that have come with my band and this blogging experience.  What a blessing it has been.  I will leave you with a few pics of the weekend.  I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving. 

 



Vickie, Me, Jacquie and Super Man

After the first Hurricane at Pat O'Brien's...no description needed!
 

Then Men Folks
My John, Jacquie's Steve and Vickie's John

Three bandsters and one Sleever
Vickie, Me, Vicky and Jacquie
 

Guess who I'm going to see on Friday?

 

I'm so excited, in just two days I'll be in New Orleans with my girls Vickie and Jacquie! And of course our hubby's too! I can hardly wait! 

 

 

 

Vickie and Jacquie last year in Chicago for BOOBS2...waiting patiently for our deep dish pizza!!!

                 

 Vickie was my roomie the first year of BOOBS and the three of us hung out and really hit it off, so last year Jacquie roomed with us too.  I am so excited to spend time with them again and  I can't wait to show them New Orleans! I will post pics next week!

Have a great weekend!
Big Hugs!
T

Looking ahead...even if it's just toward the weekend!

Hello, I hope this post finds you well.  I've got my eyes on the weekend... and it can't get here soon enough.  I'm tired...physically and emotionally! Whew!!

The election is over and I must say, this has been a difficult time for me.  I guess it's the first time that I've been through an election of this proportion while being so connected through Social Media.  I'm truly shocked by how divided our Country has become. I find it sad that people spout hateful words to one another merely because we disagree. Tolerance is in great demand. I have resisted making any political comments on Facebook or Twitter, although I've had to bite my tongue at times to stop myself.  My oldest son voted in his first Presidential election and it was a big deal to him, as it should be.   We are proud of this Country and of the Freedoms that we have.  As an American I will support my President regardless of my preference, but not everyone feels this way.  I think that it's a shame that billions of dollars are spent on campaigns when that money could be used for real good.  I think that there are hateful, intolerant people on both sides and sadly freedom of speech does not come with a filter or kindness.

This concludes my one and only political rant.  God Bless America!

Big Hugs!
T 

Senior night and more.

 

First of all, I hope all of you who are in the path of Sandy will be safe and sound!! Please keep us posted on your situation!

 

 

Now, a quick recap of the weekend:  Friday night was senior night at the football game.  Parents escort their sons onto the field, it was nice.  I survived being in the same vicinity as my ex-husband, and I survived having to wear my glasses for the night.  It was freezing cold...by Louisiana standards anyway and super windy...thus, the messed up hair!  Below is a pic of me and my son.

 

 

I had a nice weekend, and my eye is doing much better.  I got my new glasses and I feel better about having to wear them.  I can see much better too.  My old glasses were an old prescription so, it's a bonus to see.  The pic below is me with my new specs and no, it's not your imagination, my hair is darker, I colored on Saturday.  Fresh hair color always makes me feel better too! 

 

 

Not much else going on.  I had a terrible incident this weekend...food wise.  Let's just say it involved cheese puffs and gingerbread Oreos.  OH MY!

 

Today is Monday...back to reality!

 

Hope your week is good!

Big Hugs!

T

4 eyes!

I scratched my eye, or something and have inflammation on my cornea...so I have to wear my glasses for a whole week! I have to do eye drops every 4 hours and I am not too happy about it.  I wore glasses for years and years and I hated the way I looked without my glasses. My glasses were like a buffer between me and the world. I felt kind of, less exposed when I had them on.  When I got divorced, I changed a lot of things about myself, one of them was that I got contacts again. I started taking better care of myself and caring more about my appearance.  So, now...I'm having to wear my glasses and it's making me feel things that I don't want to feel.  I feel like the old version of me.  When I look at myself in the mirror, I feel so frumpy and fat! What gives?  I suppose that I just associate the glasses with the previous me.  I did order some new glasses that are a little more fashionable...but they won't be in til next week.  So until then...I'm stuck in the glass lane!

Tonight is senior night at the football game.  I have to take a picture with my son...I would go without my glasses, but then I wouldn't be able to find my way on or off the field.  Oh well, I'm excited about the game either way.

Happy Weekend!
Big Hugs!
T