Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Happy Turkey Day!

I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving and all that it holds for me and my family. I love food! This will be my last Thanksgiving without the band. Since I made the decision to have the lap band, I have been eating as though each meal is my last. I hate that about myself, but can't quite figure out how to stop it. I can't wait to have my surgery and to feel like I'm in control of food for a change, instead of the other way around. I know it won' t be easy, but I feel confident that this is the right decision for me. I spend so much energy doubting myself and picking myself apart. But today and tomorrow I'm going to spend my energy being thankful. I am thankful for so much, for my family, my career, my passion and my talents. And....I'm thankful that I'm getting banded baby!

Monday, November 23, 2009

I met my surgeon...he rocks.

I met my surgeon at the required seminar. It was very informative and I was glad that I went. There was this guy behind me and when they turned the lights down for the slide show, he began to snore, like nothing I've ever heard. Poor guy. I knew that I liked my surgeon when his response was very compassionate...he said, "sleep apnea is a devastating condition, it's nothing to laugh at, it is responsible for more sudden deaths in adults than any other condition." That being said, he was just so nice. So, I have my appointment with him on December 3, and I am so happy. I feel great about my decision. My insurance will pay 80%, so I just have to pay $2700.00 for the surgery. My darling husband said, a small price to pay for your health and happiness. God, I love that man. Anyway, I'm sending this blog out into space. I don't know if anyone will ever read it. But I'm reading tons of blogs and I feel so connected to some of these women. I'm going to figure out soon how to follow those blogs. Happy Turkey Day, it's coming!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

If you blog and no one reads it, is it still a blog?

Hey there Tess, what's up? Nothing really just writing my first blog. I know that no one will read it, and that's a little freeing. I never read a blog before I decided to get the lap band, let alone written one. But I have devoured the information on the blogs like it was chocolate. I am ready to make this move. I am the girl that was skinny for the first 25 years of my life and have been fat for 21 years, and now I'm going back. I'm gonna do things different this time, I'm going to appreciate living in the moment like I never did before. When I was thin, it wasn't thin enough. I never felt just right, ever. So, I want a do over. I want to be free from these soft blubbery chains that bind me. I want to feel good about myself. I want to start over again. I'm going to.