LilySlim - Weight loss

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Blog post # 440...

Wow, I've been blogging on and off for a really long time now! I had no idea that I had so many posts.  I will say that they have gotten progressively more boring over time.  I don't have too much exciting to report.  I suppose the holidays are upon us, like it or not, and I'm going to have to get busy shopping!  I'm still doing Medifast. Still liking it.  This week I was down another 2.5 pounds, bringing me to 32 pounds down.  I'm at 181 pounds, so close to the 170's, I just can't believe it.  I still am not sure what my goal weight is.  I'm thinking it lies somewhere between 165 and 175.  I'll let you know when I get there.  I hope every one is doing well.  Take care....
Big Hugs,
T

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Week 11 on Medifast

Hi there, I've just finished week 11 on Medifast and this week I've lost 1.4 pounds.  That brings me to 30 pounds down, and weighing in at 183.  I'm pretty darn excited about my progress still.  I went to New Orleans with some of my girlfriends and indulged, I ate, drank and was merry! And still managed to lose a tiny bit of weight that week.  But the most impressive thing of all is that I got back on track, I went to a wedding over the weekend, I drank some wine, but did not overeat and had a loss. 

Some NSV's to share: I bought 2 size 12 dresses and a Medium sweater.  I have gone down a half size in my shoes even.  I also am now wearing a size 14 jeans.  I feel great!

Some of you asked that I give the pros and cons of the Medifast program to share with you, so, here you go:

PROS                                                            CONS
fast weight loss                                              expensive
easy to follow                                                first 3 days are really hard
food taste good to me                                   
lots of choices for food items
cravings go away
good support from health coach
food delivered to my house
no meetings
weigh at home
online support
app for phone

As you can see, for me there are more pros than cons.  And even the cons are not that bad. For me it was money well spent. I feel like I'm actually going to reach my goal, even though I'm not quite sure what exactly my goal is going to be yet.  I know for sure I want to get to 170, but I won't be at a healthy BMI until I get to 166.  I guess I'll see how I feel when I get there.

Anyway, thing are going great for me. And here I am in a size 14 pants.

Big Hugs!
T

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

3.11 pounds per week

Hi there, sorry that I didn't post last week.  I had a 2 pound loss last week, this week only .2 loss.  That's okay though, I'm not concerned.  In 9 weeks I'm down 28 pounds, that's 3.11 pounds per week.  Not too shabby. 

My hubby is better, he had to go back in the hospital for 4 days, had additional surgery for infection.  But now he's good.  That was so scary! I'm so glad that is finally behind us.

I've got an exciting weekend coming up, meeting up with some wonderful girlfriends out of town.  I cannot wait to see them and have some much needed R & R! I'm planning to have fun and cocktail while I'm there, but I'm not planning to go overboard.  I hope I don't undo any of my hard work.

Have a great day!
Big Hugs!
T

Friday, October 4, 2013

25 pounds really does make a difference

Well, as I've blogged about,  I've been doing Medifast and have lost 25 pounds in the last 7 weeks.  I've really been getting a lot of comments and compliments on my weight loss in the last couple of weeks. It's difficult, however, for me to see much of a difference.  So, I decided to do a side by side comparison.  The one on the left is me the day I started Medifast (213 pounds), the one on the right is me this morning (187 pounds)...technically that's 26 pounds down, but my weigh day is Tuesday.  I can see a difference, and it makes me happy. This brings my totals to: 79 pounds down since my surgery date, and 98 pounds down from my heaviest.  Excuse the fact that my leg is positioned funny on the pic from this morning.  I feel good and wanted to share it with you!
 
Have a great weekend!
Big Hugs!
T

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Week 7...update

Well, I did not get to post last week, because my sweet hubby had emergency surgery for a ruptured appendix.  Needless to say, it was an eventful week.  I had a lot to share too! My week 6 weigh in was -5.1 pounds and this week's -3. For a 7 week total of: -25.6!!  That's an average of 3.65 per week.  I can't tell you how much this pleases me!! I am in the 180's! I have not seen the 180's since 1989.  Wooo hoo! Can I get a holla!

That's about it...
Big Hugs!
T

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

5 weeks on plan!

Hey there, today is my weekly weigh in.  I'm down 1.5 this week and pleased to say that's 18 pounds down in 5 weeks.  I am really excited and still pretty motivated!

Some of you have asked questions about Medifast, so I just thought I'd share a bit with you:
I'm doing it through the Take Shape for Life program, I have a health coach, she has lost 90 pounds.
If you want to learn more, you can check out her website: http://2becomeme.tsfl.com/.

Anyway.  I'm feeling good, still exercising regularly and losing.  I gotta say it's a good feeling.

Have a great day!
Big Hugs,
T

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

4 weeks on Medifast...

Good morning,
I made it, 4 weeks on Medifast without cheating.  Whoo hoo.  I cannot believe it! Although my weight loss was not exceptional this week, I'm down another pound, for a 4 week total of 16 1/2 pounds.  That's pretty darn good.  I'm going to keep on keeping on til I reach my goal!  I've also been exercising 5 days a week, so in 4 weeks, I've logged 36 miles.  I must say that I'm still feeling motivated. 
Have a great week!
Big Hugs,
T

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

In response to your questons...

A few of you have asked if I'm only doing shakes on the Medifast plan.  I thought I'd take a minute to clarify.  I'm doing the 5 and 1 program, which means that I eat 5 Medifast meals and then 1 lean and green meal.  The Medifast meals are not just shakes, there are shakes, cappuccinos, smoothies, mac and cheese, chips and pretzels soups, chili and bars.  I like most of the food they have.  And then at one meal you get protein and a veggie.  It's really not bad at all.  So, just to clarify, I'm not just having shakes.  For me, the protein serving is really pretty big, so I split it up and put some of it in my lunch.  It's really the way I should have been eating all along with my lap band.  I like the fast results too!
That's about it,
T

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Medifast...week 3!

I guess I've resorted to just posting about my weigh ins and my progress with the Medifast diet.  I wish I had something more exciting to post about, but I don't, ha ha! 

Anyway, I just can't tell you how happy I am that I decided to give Medifast a shot.  I was really beginning to think that it was impossible for me to lose weight anymore.  But guess what, like most diets, if you do it...it will work!

Today was my weigh in and I'm flabbergasted -4.9 pounds this week for a 3 week total of -15.8!

Holy Cow!  I'm firmly in onederland again and it feels good!

Hope you have a great week!
T

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Week 2, Medifast...

Okay, I survived another week of Medifast and today was my weigh in, down another 2.9 pounds.  Total down: 10.9.  I can't tell you how happy this makes me.  Whoo hoo.  I've been walking every day and think I really do have my MOJO back.  And, haven't even had a crave for wine.  I hope I finally reach my goal!!  Have a great day.
Big Hugs,
T

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Week one on Medifast.

Well, I survived week one of Medifast and OMG! I lost 8 pounds in one week.  I haven't lost 8 pounds in a whole month in over a year! I am so excited.  One thing I can say about the program is that it really does work.  The food is not that bad and you get to eat every 2-3 hours so, you're really not that hungry. It has done wonders for my MOJO and I finally feel like I'm in control again.  I have no desire to cheat, because the results are such great incentive.  Just wanted to share that news with you.  Woo Hoo!

Big Hugs!
T

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Just checking in...

Hi Friends, long, long time...no blog.  I'm still reading your blogs, but don't always post comments.  Shame on me!  Well, let me catch you up on some stuff:
  • Since my fill, I'm feeling much better, not throwing up, but I don't have the kind of restriction I had before, I'm thinking maybe I should get a little more in soon, but will wait and see.  My fills always are slow to take.
  • My weight was up several pounds and I was pissy about it.  I also used my pissiness as an excuse to comfort myself with food.  I'm over that now.
  • I decided to do Medi-fast.  My best friend is doing it and I decided I needed something to really kick start my weight loss.  I've read tons about it and how quickly you can lose.  I'm on day 3 and it's not so bad, I'm not hungry and the little mini meals are perfect for a bandster.  I'm hoping this will get me back into losing.  Oh, and that means no drinking! Oy!
  • I will be seeing a few of my band buddies in October, and in January my stepson is getting married, both of these are great motivators for me to get my butt in gear. I've been just kind of depressed lately and feeling like a failure in the weight department. 
  • I need to be nicer to myself.  I haven't reached my goal, but unlike every other weight loss attempt, I'm not fatter than I was when I started.  For me, that's saying a lot, especially 3 years out from the onset.  I'm still 75 pounds down from my heaviest and 58 pounds from my surgery weight.  I have plenty to be proud of. 
  • It baffles me that I could feel so good about myself one week and the following week, just feel like crap.  Tammy Wynette wasn't lying when she said "sometimes it's hard to be a woman..."
  • You're welcome for getting "Stand by your Man" stuck in your head too.
  • My step-daughter is enrolled in nursing school has a job and has moved out, into her own place. I really proud her.
  • My son starts college in a little over a week.  I can't believe it.
  • My baby started school yesterday, he's a Junior.  Where does the time go?
  • My Hubby is doing great at his new job.
I think that about catches y'all up.  My life is not too exciting. I hope you guys are doing well.
Take it easy...until next time.
Big Hugs!
T

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Got a fill yesterday!!

I'm so happy I got a fill yesterday.  I was so hungry and thinking about food all the time! It's funny how the band really does help control hunger if you do things right.  I had forgotten what it was like to spend my entire day thinking about what I could cram in my mouth.  Glad to have some restriction again.  I plan to be nice to my band, I don't want to go through anything like I did before with the tightness. 

Have a great day!
Big Hugs,
T

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

The longest I've gone without blogging...

I suck at keeping up with my blog.  I think that it has served its purpose, perhaps.  I don't know.  All I know is that I read your blogs, I think...wow, Laura Belle is doing a challenge, blog everyday in July...I should do that.  Then, I don't.  I don't know why.  I just don't feel like blogging much.  I am still with my unfill.  I definitely want it back, maybe not so much as I had before, but at least 3/4 of the way back to were I was. I was supposed to get a fill today, they called and rescheduled me til next Wednesday! Not cool!  I'm really hungry...a lot! And, I'm eating way more than I should be.  The scale has rewarded my efforts in the eating arena and gone up! Yuck.  Not too bad, but I'm up 5 pounds.  Every morning I say to myself: "Self, you gotta get a grip, you've got to get control of your food again! I also say, I almost would rather vomit everyday again than be hungry, hungry and able to eat! OY!" Then, I realize, no....I don't want to be throwing up again.  But I don't want to feel out of control and I certainly don't want to gain weight.  I've noticed that I feel much fatter right now then I did when I weighed a ton  more.  What's up with that?

In other news, my oldest son has been in Europe for 2.5 weeks and will return on Saturday, my youngest has been in Colorado for a week and returns tomorrow.  I have not been able to talk to  him, as he's on a hiking adventure and they take their phones from them.  I miss them sooooo much and can't wait to see them!!!

So, other than sucking at blogging and sucking at food. that's about it in my life.
How about you?

Take it easy...
T

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

One week with the unfill...

Hi there, Blogger still won't allow me to upload pictures and it's making me mad.  I don't understand!

Anyway.  I'm one week with my unfill.  I can tell you, that I feel great! It is so nice to be able to eat without pain.  I had forgotten what that was like.  I can sit up in the morning and take a pill and drink water, without issue.  I'm glad I did it.   Now, I must say that I am hungrier than I've been in a while too.  I was hungry a bunch before, because I couldn't eat anything satisfying, but then again, I wasn't really wanting to eat, because I knew what would happen. So, now I know I'll be okay when I eat and maybe that is adding to my hunger.  I think that I will need about 1/2cc fill soon, but I'm going to wait a good month before.  My experience has always been that an adjustment takes about 2-3 weeks to settle in for me, so I don't want to rush in and make an adjustment until I give it time.  I generally tighten up after a couple of weeks.  I'm really going to have to watch myself now that I can eat.  I don't want to back slide.  My weight crept up about 2 pounds from the weekend, but I'm not too worried, I just need to watch it and ease up on the vino.  Oh, if only wine wasn't so lovely.  I hope everyone is doing well.  Today is the last day of school for my youngest one.  I can't believe I will only have one left in High School.  It doesn't seem possible.  Now to get a little work done.
Have a great day!
Big Hugs,
T

Friday, May 17, 2013

It's been a while!

Hey Guys, I know it's been forever since I've blogged.  I've been really busy! My son and my step-daughter graduated from High School.  It was great, but a very busy time, to say the least.  There were lots of parties and events, lots of planning and now on to getting them ready for the next phase in their lives.  I'm so proud of them both, it's quite an accomplishment. 

Well, one of the last times I posted, I told you about my un-fill that didn't happen.  I finally got an un-fill.  I got 1 cc removed on Thursday and I can't tell you how good it feels to not be hurting anymore.  For the last week, things had gotten really bad, last week there were several days that I couldn't even drink water til late in the afternoon.  I was scared and grumpy.  But feeling really good now!

And, I'm still in onderland.  This morning I weighed in at 197.  I'll take it.  I think I'll be able to finally eat some protein and vegetables so I might get the scale moving in the right direction.  I wanted to post some pics from graduation, but Blogger is not being nice to me today and won't let me post them.

I hope everyone is doing well.  I will try to get pictures to post later. Happy Friday!
Big hugs,
T

Monday, April 1, 2013

Look what the Easter Bunny brought me!!!!

Holy Cow! I didn't think it would ever happen, but Easter Sunday Morning I woke up and my weight started with a 1 for the first time in 23 years! I'm so excited and it only took me 3 years to get there! ha ha!  Anyway, I did eat on Easter Sunday, even had a little dessert, so I was worried, but this morning it was there again, a couple of ounces lower even.  I can't tell you what this does for my MOJO!

I wanted to thank you all for your wonderful comments on my bandiversary blog.  You guys sure know how to make a girl feel good.  One of the biggest blessings that my band has brought me is this community of bloggers.  I have found REAL friendship and support that I can't imagine doing with out.  Thank you so much.

I hope you all have a wonderful week.

Big Hugs!
T

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

3 year bandiversary!

 
Well hey there! I hope you're doing well.  I'm 2 days late on this post, but I'm celebrating my 3 year band anniversary.  I can tell you I have learned a great deal in the past 3 years, about myself, about my band, about food addiction and so much more.  So, I'm going to share a little about the last few years with you.
 
I was hoping that I would be able to report a trip to onederland for my 3 year anniversary, but that didn't happen, however....I'm pleased to say that I weighed in this morning at 201. That is 65 pounds down from the day of my surgery, 76 pounds down from the day of my consult and 84 pounds down from my heaviest recorded weight (which may or may not be my actual highest weight, lol!)
 
I feel really good right now, physically and mentally! I had a real wake up call recently when I went for my unfill and they were unable to access my port.  It scared me and made me really stop and do some soul searching about what my expectations were for my band and what I needed to do differently.  I realized something that I really knew already,  that, for the most part, the problems I was having with my band were self-induced.  I knew that I needed to make some changes if I was ever going to make peace with this piece of plastic in my gut.
 
So, here's what I did differently.  First of all, it was the beginning of Lent, so I decided to give up drinking for Lent, I did this last year, but found that I was replacing my love of wine with my love of chocolate and all things sweet.  So, this year I gave up drinking and I gave up sweets.  I learned that if I want to lose weight again, I'm going to have to stop drinking on weekdays at the very least.  I'm consuming too many liquid calories and then, after having a few drinks, my band is loosey goosey and I overindulge...double whammy! I also realized after the first week off of sweets, that I have a real problem with sugar. I felt so horrible getting off of it, I had headaches and moodiness. It really had a hold on me.  Once I got off of sugar, I found out that it really is true, when you don't eat sugar, you don't crave it! How about that?
 
Then I decided to just stop and pay attention to my band, if I was tight...I just ate soup or a shake, amazingly, a great deal of my tightness issues resolved when I stopped forcing things.  I had to really work hard on this one, because my food issues go way back, and when I can't eat because of tightness, it was nearly always followed by me feeling sorry for myself and medicating with bad food choices that slid on through my band.
 
Today, 3 years later, I can honestly say that I am so glad I got my band and I would do it again.  I feel so much more in control of my life and my food than before.  I have more confidence and I really feel like I will eventually get the rest of my weight off and I feel like I will be able to keep it off.  
 
I looked back over my list from way back...the top 10 things I wanted from my band:
 
 10. To no longer be obese. (I am officially just overweight!!! My BMI is 29.7, I just found this out, I hadn't checked in ages so this was exciting news for me today!)


9. To feel comfortable in my clothes. (Definitely, I feel really good, I can shop in regular stores, today I'm actually wearing a pair of jeans that my sister handed down to me, they are a size 14!!)


8. To get my blood pressure under control. (I'm off of one BP med, but still on one, but my blood pressure is great and I feel really good.)


7. To take a beach vacation and not feel inclined to wear at tent! (We haven't been back to the beach but I have been swimming with friends and I feel pretty normal!)

6. To adjust the seat in my car without having to move my butt to one side to get my arm down there! (Victory!!! My butt no longer hangs off of either side of the seat!)


5. To no longer know the Muffin man! (he lives above my waist) -- (Success! Unless I try on something that obviously doesn't fit, no muffin top!)

4. To weigh less than my husband. (I was for a while, but he's doing great, he's lost a bunch of weight and he's really working hard to keep it off!)

3. To wear a football mom shirt and not feel so out of place. (Done! I'm now successfully wearing the track mom shirts and feel great!)

2. To weigh less than the average starting lineman on any given Sunday.(Done! The actual average weight of linemen in the NFL is 270, so Yay!)
And....the number one thing I want from the band.....

1. For my personality to be bigger than my butt! (I've always had a pretty big personality, but the interesting thing about that is...I no longer feel the need to be the life of the party at all moments, I've really gotten to a point in my life, and this probably has more to do with age than weight loss, where I am pretty darn comfortable in my own skin! So...I say success!

So, 9 out of 10 is not bad.  Like I said, I've had a really shift in my perception and in the way I'm doing things.  I think success is the course I'm bound for. 

I will leave you with a picture comparison:
 
 The left is me the night before my surgery, looking really happy...at 266 pounds, size 24 pants, on the right is me this morning at 201 and wearing my sister's size 14 pants.  So, happy Bandiversary to me, and many more!
 
Big Hugs!
T

 




















Monday, March 18, 2013

An actual loss!


Holy Cow! I can hardly believe it, but the scale is moving! Actually moving downward, not up! I'm so excited.  It's been so long since I've been able to post a loss, I couldn't remember how to update my ticker and actually had to delete it and do another one.  That's pretty sad. But now, I'm closer than ever to Onederland, I am at 202.  So, keep your fingers crossed for me that I'll get to 199 by my Bandiversary on the 25th.

Have a great day!

Big Hugs,
T

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

When you lie to yourself....

You're the only one who gets hurt.

Hello peeps.  I'm approaching my 3 year band anniversary.  I've been doing a great deal of thinking and really trying to be honest with myself.  Here are the things I've discovered:

  • There is nothing wrong with my band.
  • There is something wrong with the user.
  • When I make a bad choice, I will be the one to pay for it.
  • I have a problem with sugar.
  • I have a problem with bread.
  • I have a problem separating my wants from my needs.
  • I still use food as a drug.
  • The reason I haven't reached my goal, is because I haven't believed that I could do it and I haven't believed that I deserve it.
  • I can and I do deserve to be at my goal weight.
  • I still miss the anonymity of being fatter.
  • I am a slow learner.
  • I am losing again.
  • I will reach my goal.
  • No one can do it for me.
Well there you have it.  Sometimes I think, man after 3 years, you're still struggling with this, what is wrong with you?  But then, I have to stop and think about things for a moment.  3 years is nothing when I stack it up next to the many years that it took me to get so fat.  My use of food as a coping mechanism is ingrained in me, it's part of who I am.  This will be a life long challenge.  I spent a good portion of last year wondering if I made the right surgery choice.  I wanted the band over bypass because I wanted to be able to make adjustments, I know several people with the bypass who initially lost all of their weight, but then gained it back.  I was afraid.  But you know what I was really afraid of?  I was afraid that I was going to get the gold standard as far as weight loss surgery goes, the double whammy....restriction and malabsorbtion and still be a failure.  I was afraid of not being able to go back, I was afraid that I might not be able to live without using food to cope and then where would I be?  I thought, well....lots of people are successful with the band, even if they don't always loose 100% of their excess weight, some is better than none and if I don't like it, I can always have it taken out.  How childish, how reckless of me! To think that I would just be so cavalier about a life altering surgery is beyond me now.  I know that my band has been a huge part of my success so far, but I also know that it hasn't done this for me.  It has helped greatly, it has leveled the playing field for me.  I know also that staying away from sugar is probably as effective as my band in controlling hunger and I've know that for some time now, but I've been in denial. I know that honesty is not always pleasant, but in order to get where I need to get....it's a necessary step. 

I weighed in today at 204, the first time in a long time I've been below 205.  I want to get there....and that's a big step for me.  I haven't wanted it bad enough.

I hope you all have a great day, as always, thanks for your support.  You've been a huge blessing to me on this journey.

Big Hugs!
T

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Ch Ch Ch Changes... also know as the pity party!

Howdy Peeps! I'm still alive, still here, still in a bit of a funk, still 50.... By the way, this week is the first time that I've actually felt old.  I don't like it.  Maybe I'm experiencing a bit of post birthday sadness, maybe it's because so much is changing in my life, maybe it's because some things are not changing, but I'm just kind of feeling...well...I don't know a good word for it, sad or out of sorts.

Like I said, things are changing.  I went to a senior meeting on Monday, and suddenly the fact that two of our kids are going to graduate from high school in 3 months and begin the next phase of their lives, hit me like a ton of bricks. My husband is making a big career move.  My ex-husband is being a turd and it's affecting my kids, just a bunch of things are swirling around and it's unsettling.

Then some things are not changing.  My weight for one, my activity level, my career.  I'm still in the same place on the scale.  I'm still not exercising, I still don't want to. I'm still in my same, not very exciting job, some days I just get really antsy about  being here and feel like I'm wasting away here.  And, I'm tired.  I'm tired.  All I want to do right now, is sleep. What's up with that?  I usually have much more energy than I do. 

I gave up drinking for Lent, and sweets! That is probably the problem right now.  Sadly, aside from my family, I love wine and chocolate the most!  I'm probably experiencing sugar withdrawal right now.  I hope my mood gets better, it has only been a week today!

Then, my friend (who is the more talented part of the lounge singer duo in the variety show I do each Summer) just called to tell me she's moving.  Our act is something that I look forward to every summer.  In case you didn't pick up on this about me, I'm not real crazy about changes that are out of my control.  In the past, my coping mechanism for those kinds of changes has been food.  Although I still cope with food sometimes, I can't eat what I want to when I want to.  I don't really want to, but sometimes feel like I still need to.  So, I'm turning to one of my other coping mechanisms...writing it down here.  Getting it out of my head and onto the screen.  Hopefully that will make me feel better. 

I hope you are all having a great week and that I don't bring the mood down.

Big Hugs,
T

Monday, January 28, 2013

I'm 50!

I can kick and stretch and kick...I'm 50! Ha ha! Today I turned 50, and it's not such a bad place to be.  As I look back over my life, and the missteps along the way, I suppose that there has been more good than bad.  I'm so thankful that I have my band, that, although I still want to lose more weight, I have maintained a 60 pound loss for 2 years.  I'm healthier, happier and I think I look better.   The picture below is me, on the left at 40 on the right at 50 (10 years and 80 pounds!).  I wouldn't want to go back, that's for sure. 
 
I had a great weekend, filled with celebrating and good friends. It was really great.  I hope you all have a great week!
Big Hugs,
T

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

The unfill that wasn't

Hello.  How are you?  I hope well.  Yesterday I went to see my surgeon for a slight unfill.  First of all, it's been since March or so of last year since I saw my surgeon.  At that time, I was having 1/2 cc put back in after having 1 cc removed.  Since my last visit, I have only lost 3 pounds.  Not great, but not a gain.  I mean I know... I've been maintaining.  I feel good and bad about this. 

So, anyway....I'm on the table, stomach tensed so he can access my port easier.  He has his hand on the general area, hits me with lidocaine, then goes in for the port, I feel him hit the port, he bears down really  hard, and then...strange sound, strange sensation, the needle bounces off the port.  He does this about 10 times total, after the 5th try he says each time..."this is the last try."  So, it happens each time, and I end up leaving with no unfill.  And a very sore port area.  He said, sometimes these things happen, let yourself heal up, when it's not sore, come back we'll try it again.  The nurse said, yeah...they happen but usually when  you're in need of an unfill.

Anyway, my band is playing nice right now, I'm not struggling to drink water and I can eat okay, but last week it was horrible.  I don't know what is going on with my port.  I haven't felt any pain in the area, I haven't felt like it's moved or anything like that.  Has this happened to any of you?

So, when I got home, I was feeling sorry for myself, and I was hurting.  I told my husband that I wonder what I'm supposed to learn from this? He said...I think you're reading a little too much into it.  Like he doesn't know me or something, lol!

I don't know.  I know that I need to take better care of myself.  I need to concentrate more on nutrition and be kinder to my band. 

I really appreciate all of your kind comments on my last post.  Thanks for the support!
Big Hugs!
T

Friday, January 11, 2013

I've lost that loving feeling....

Towards my blog anyway.  I've seen it happen over and over to people I've followed, their posts get farther and farther between and then before you know...they're gone. 

I really just have no desire to blog anymore.  I really love reading your blogs and commenting when I can, but every time I go to write a post, I stop.  Maybe it's because I'm just boring and I never have any weight loss news to report.  Maybe, it's just run it's course.  I dont' know.

I will try to catch you up quickly on what's going on with me.  Here are a few bullets:
  • I'm still at the same spot weight wise.  I had gained a bit over the holidays, but due to some tightness, I'm back at my same old place.  Still feeling like I will never see 199...but still okay not hating myself for being 205-208.
  • The holidays were very nice. It was nice to be with family and friends.
  • I was tight, very tight over both Thanksgiving and Christmas.
  • I'm having an unfill on Tuesday.
  • My hubby is more aggravated with my band than I am.
That's about it.  See, I'm boring.  And I'm just feeling like my blog is a little played out.  I'm going to be 50 in 17 days.  I was really hoping to be at my goal by then.  Not going to happen unless I change my goal, lol!  I'm hoping that an unfill will help me jump start my weight loss.  It's been really hard to make good choices, when eating hurts and it I know it's just going to come back up.  I will keep you posted on that.  I hope all is well in your world.  If anyone out there still bothers to check my blog...thanks!

Happy Friday!
T