Monday, April 16, 2012

Mary...present, Sue...present,

Theresa....absent! I have been such a negligent blogger. I'm wondering if it's time to try blogging about something other than my band and weight loss journey. I'm still here. I'm struggling right now with band tightness again. I'm afraid I'm going to have to get an unfill again. I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself actually because I'm struggling to eat. It's all about the hormones. I started today, so I know the tightness will ease up, but I threw up so much over the weekend, that I start to freak out and think that I've done some permanent damage to my band or my esophagus. Does anyone else start getting like that too? I'm just really afraid to gain any of my weight back and my last unfill, even though I just got 1/2cc out didn't seam to last that long, I was tight again in about a month. So, I'm open to suggestions. I'm literally only too tight about 9 days out of the month, other times, I feel fine or even too loose. You see my dilemma. I feel like this weekend was the worst episode ever of tightness though. I'm so sore and irritated. Today I've just done soup and mushies, I'm really going to try to give myself some time to heal. I just get so hungry when I can't eat and I feel sorry for myself, and when that happens, I want to eat! Oy!
Other than that, things are good, Easter was really nice. I'm still reading even if I'm not blogging.
I'm still ever grateful for all of your support!
Big Hugs!
T

8 comments:

Linda said...

I do get tighter due to hormones - not so tight I can't eat solids though. I guess ultimately you have to decide what you can live with in that respect. If you know it's a fact that you will be tighter about a week a month can you be better prepared for it so it's not such a struggle mentally?
If you have to go to soups - can you make or buy some really good ones that would keep you satisfied? Can you eat a snack like Pirate Booty that kind of just dissolves to help with the deprivation? It would give you something to crunch during that time.
I get the same feeling of resentment when I'm on liquids so I understand.
Keep trying to post - I will too. You won't be boring to me b/c we're working through similar things.

#fatfreefloozy said...

I know exactly what you mean and I am in the same predicament. My band is fine 80% of the time and then suddenly....vomit. It always happens at the worse times too. Cafes/restaurants/when there is no bathroom near. I don't want to get an unfill because of the 80% when it is good. I am guessing I just need to learn which foods to eat and when.

Andrew said...

Hi its me :-)

I dont have those hormone things but I still get tight ... yesterday I also had an unfill - 2.5 years on and i still get tight , PB and dont eat correctly.... resently I also had night coughs...not plesent at all....3 nights no sleep because i was tooo tight ...

Some times we need to respect what we have ... ( thats family, friends and Bands)....

keep smiling....


good to hear from you

Andrew said...

please forgive the spelling ....

Lonicera said...

It's nice to read you, whatever you write. I also enjoy when you post about your family. I've had an unfill recently and my weight is creeping up again, so I'll have to have a partial refill eventually I guess.
Caroline

Kristin said...

Oh sweetie I am so sorry you are suffering. There is nothing worse than a too tight band!!!!!

I was PB'ing more than I was not honestly! I kept denying it, and my family saw it and they were frightened for me but never said a word til my Band decided to make it so loud that I had to listen.

You need an unfill and perhaps a total unfill. I know your fear believe me I know, now that I have no band. However, your esophagus cannot ever be replaced. If the band is causing issues, they MUST be resolved.

Please see your Dr and let them know everything that is happening and do not sugar coat it!

Thinking of you

Laura Belle said...

eh, just blog about a bunch of bullshit like i do. it's fine! lol.

Lap Band Gal said...

Missed your posts. Hang in there with that restriction...hormones can be a bitch