Thursday, April 19, 2012

Things I used to know...

Hi, my name is Theresa and I used to know some things, that I forgot. Today, I'm going to try really hard to remember at least a few of them:
  • I used to know that when I'm really tight and struggling that I actually have some power to do things differently. I can choose not to eat solids, no matter how hungry I am. By making that choice, I will not pour gas on the flame...it will get better much quicker without the added irritation.
  • I used to know that being hungry, even really hungry...well...it won't kill me, even if I think it will.
  • I used to know that the band is just a tool. I have to really do my part or I'm not ever going to get where I want to go.
  • I used to know how much I really do love my band. Not just on the days of the month when it decides to play nice.
  • I used to know how good it feels to eat food that keeps me satisfied.
  • I used to know that I have made real progress.
  • I used to know that every time I looked in the mirror I would feel disgusted and ashamed and I used to know what a wonderful feeling it is to no longer be disgusted!
  • I used to know that one of the things on my list of reasons why I wanted to get banded was to wear a football or track shirt to my son's events and not be out of place. I actually wore my son's shirt to the last 2 events...a plain old size large. I used to think that would feel divine!
  • I used to know that I would get to my goal no matter how long it took me.
  • I used to know that I was worth the effort.

These are the things that today....I know I'm going to work on knowing again. Thanks for all the support guys, it means so much to me. I think this must be the 2 year itch and it's going around. It's time for the 3 year slide into goal! I hope you have a great weekend. Things are much better on the band front. I'm not feeling so tight. I'm able to eat better and that always makes me feel better.

Big Hugs!

T

14 comments:

MandaPanda said...

I've got a theory and you just made me realize it. The first year, it's new and easier. If you don't make it to goal the first year, it's gonna be a lot harder. The second year is pure drivel...almost worst than bandster hell because you KNOW how it should be going. I don't know how the third year is yet...but I'm hoping it's better. :)

Amanda M. said...

I know how you feel. My second anniversary just past. I didn't lose any weight. In fact I gained. We can only look forward. We shouldn't dwell on the past because we will end up getting stuck there. We can do this!

Band Geek said...

What great reminders. It's so darn easy to learn to "trick" the band, when in fact, the joke is on us. We just need to use this tool as it was intended.

Linda said...

You know it ALL. You can do this!

#fatfreefloozy said...

Couldn't have said it better myself!

Amanda Kiska said...

Hi! What MandaPanda said...

Jacquie said...

I've missed you! Good to see you blogging again!

~Lisa~ said...

Tricking has been a foible of mine these day - which is probably why I've been "stuck" at this same weight for the past month!

Thank YOU for making me more aware of what is going in my pie-hole!!

Kristin said...

We are the MASTERS of our own destiny!

It is a process and takes times, and working at it is the first step to progress and ultimately the goal you may want to achieve!

But you have to also know you have done so well, and look amazing!

Gilly said...

I missed you too!

Sandy said...

Glad you know. Me too. And I loved that photo you put on FB. Your smile was infectious. Be well. And keep posting.

CeeJay said...

Oh, I am right there with ya! Also just past my second bandiversary and dealing with a 25 pounds gain due to stress, life happenings etc. Time to refocus!!! Good luck!

Andrea said...

Great job on re-focusing!

Joey said...

TOTALLY!
I was just talking to my PA about this. She said that it's very common at the 2 year mark to gain some or stall. The weight loss isn't the be all end all anymore. I mean it gets freaking exhausting....right? It's persistence, not perfection :)