Finding inspiration...

Well hi there.  I hope this post finds you well.  I'm once again, a bit of a reluctant blogger.  I read your blogs and keep up.  I just don't feel much inspiration to write lately. I wanted to share with you that I have recently found an incredible blog about a woman who has the vertical sleeve, she's halfway to her goal of losing 300 pounds. You can read about her here.  She is so strong and is doing so well.  When I look at her and read her posts about some of the heart ache she has endured because of her obesity and all of the obstacles she has overcome on her way to health, I'm so inspired.  She's really incredible. 

I had my annual Doctor's visit this week and had my blood work done.  I'm happy to report that my health is great. My weight was down by only 6 pounds since my last visit, but still it was down.  My blood pressure was 100/60, my cholesterol was optimal, my blood sugar was great.  The only problem was my Vitamin D was low.  So, I need to take a supplement and maybe get out in the sunshine a little, ha!  I think my pasty skin will appreciate it.  As long as I don't end up looking like the tanning bed mom that's all over the news.  Poor woman...that is too sad!

My weight is holding steady.  I fully realize that the reason the scale is not moving in a downward fashion is because of me.  I'm just really content right now, it is so nice not to have to struggle...I'm eating like I would imagine a normal person does.  Some days are better than others, but when you average them out, it's not too shabby.  I'm happy. That's something pretty darn big. 

I watched the finale of "The Biggest Loser" online yesterday, I have not been following the show.  But it really is amazing how good some of the people look! Wow! Can you believe anyone could lose 199 pounds in such a short period of time? I don't necessarily agree with the methods and I don't think it's very realistic.  But you cannot deny the entertainment value of it all. 

I have given a great deal of thought to where I really want to be weight wise.  I think that if I was under 200 pounds, I would feel better about things.  But 199 is illusive.  Anyway.  I initially said 166 was my goal, but I really don't know.  I think I want to lose 30 more pounds that would put me at 175.  I'm tall, the last time I weight 175, was 23 years ago, and I looked pretty darned good. When I really stop and think about it, I think part of what's holding me back is that I don't think 30 pounds is going to make that much of a difference, because at the beginning of this journey it was a full 50 pounds before anyone really noticed that I had lost weight at all.  I remember years ago when I lost 30 pounds and got down in the 170's it was a huge difference.  Why am I having so much trouble wrapping my head around that? At this stage in the game, I can honestly say that gaining 5 pounds makes a huge difference in the way I feel and the way my clothes fit, what makes me think that 6 times that won't make a huge difference.  I just need to reassess and get my head back in the game.  I know that success is possible, but I also know that I have to want it and I have to work at it. 

I hope this wasn't too whiny! And I hope you guys have a great day and a great weekend to come.
Big Hugs!
T