Now that I that I am between 30 and 40 pounds overweight (I give myself a 10 pound range, because I'm not sure what weight I need to be yet), rather than 100 pounds over weight, I tend to blend in much better. For the last 25 years or so, I have been painfully aware that I'm generally the biggest thing in a room, bar the furnishings. I have always done my best to stand out, with my personality and sense of humor, as it was obvious I was standing out because of my size so I felt a bit of an obligation to bring that full circle. I've told you before that my husband has always hated when I make fun of myself about my size. He always says..."self
deprecators are losers!" Just like that. Although, I still struggle with feeling really secure at this size, when I look around the room lately, I'm often not the biggest one anymore. It feels good to be pretty average and it feels good to blend in.
I had a nice weekend and spent some much needed time with my girlfriends. Although, I really do miss the hubs when he is away, that makes it so much nicer when he returns. A little NSV to share, I went shopping to get a new top on Friday and I tried on nothing but Larges and they all fit me!
I hope you all have a great week.