Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
I'm still hurting from it. Okay, so this is really only my 3rd time to PB, but each time it gets worse and my question to you banders is this....after you PB and have a bad stuck episode, do you feel super hungry? I do and it's weird, maybe it's because it's so traumatic and I need to be comforted, but still it manifests itself in the old "stomach growling fiercely, I'm so hungry I could eat a horse" kind of hungry. I don't get it, because after such an episode, I would think that the last thing I really would be interested in is more of what caused my pain.
I hope everyone had a great weekend. My poor husband had a crappy Father's Day weekend, he got food poisoning and has been terribly sick since Thursday. I hate when someone you love is sick and you can't do anything to make it better. Poor baby....he's better today though.
Did everyone check out Joey's pictures on her blog? OMG, she looks like a model and I want both of those dresses, but I want to look like Joey does in them. Okay, enough rambling. Have a great Monday! Hugs!!!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
First let me tell you how much I appreciate all of your sweet and encouraging comments yesterday. It really makes a girl feel good knowing that so many people have her back emotionally and...well physically as well...knowing that Joey, Carmen and Amanda are ready to go "all kinds a street and cut someone!" LOL. You guys are really the best. Thank you.Now on to BYOC
These questions are so hard people, just one? Probably Ethel Mermen, I know that sounds crazy, but she could belt out a tune and make you forget where you are. I think her voice suits my personality.
2. What is your most disgusting habit?
Okay, I'm a free gagger, like when I read Jess describe her tonsils I gagged uncontrollably and my eyes were watering, it was bad. I have a very vivid imagination so if someone is describing something gross, I just can't help it!
3. Carmen and Drazil were talking about Chicago and their fears...for those of you going (and those of you not you can answer as if you were going)...what is your biggest fear?
I'm not worried about meeting you guys. I'm a little worried about traveling alone and that I won't lose the weight I want to before then.
4. This isn't so much a question but a challenge. Name one thing you will do for just one day next week in the name of health and commit to it on your blog and to us.
I'll bring my lunch to work and plan better.
5. Whose blog or comment stuck with you the most this week?
All of the comments yesterday for me. I love you guys!
Friday, June 18, 2010
I hope a wonderful weekend is in store for everyone. Big Hug!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
And this is me, Ginger (my dearest friend) and Vickie! One of the highlights of my trip, was getting to meet her and her husband John! They were so much fun and I can't wait til Chicago!
Yes, it was a great vacation, one that ended too soon and then put me in the position of playing catch up at work all week, so excuse my absence from this blog and all of yours. I read every chance I get, but will likely never get caught up. I hope everyone is doing well, I miss you guys and will be back on schedule soon.
On the weight loss front, I'm holding at 27 pounds down. I didn't really lose anything last week, but I didn't gain anything on vacation, which I suppose is good. I was scheduled for a fill next Tuesday, but postponed it, as I'm still getting stuck every once in a while and think that I am at a good level of restriction right now.
I hope everyone has a great rest of the week, I'll post again when I can. Big Hug!
Monday, June 14, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
Barbie hung out on the deck listening to the hi-fy!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
And, this is me from "The Trip to Bountiful" a wonderful play I did about 3 years ago at one of our Community Theatres. I used to do lots of shows when I was younger, but since I had kids, I've found it really hard to commit the time to a show when I have so many other obligations. There are two roles that I would be willing to commit for and this was one of them, Jessie Mae is a total Bitch and she was wonderful to play. The other role that I've long wanted to play is Nurse Ratched in "One Flew over the Cuckoos Nest." When I did this show, as you can see, I had to wear a black silky nightgown for 1/2 of the show! Talk about stressful, I was so girdled in you could bounce a quarter of my ass from 30 feet away. I ran accross these pictures when I was cleaning some files off my computer at work today. One of the things that I really want from this journey is to be able to play any role that comes my way and not feel like I couldn't pull off the part, because of my weight. I just thought I'd share that with you guys. Have a great day
and thanks again for all of the support you gave me yesterday!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
It's been an exciting week in blog land, Drazil's big reveal, Amy W. getting up on a slalom ski, lots of soul searching and successes.
I'm going on vacation next week and guess who I get to meet?.....That's right Miss Vickie!
(http://thequeenbeeslapbandlife.blogspot.com/) I'm so excited!
Now, on to another note. I talked last week in my blog about not turning to food for comfort, but instead turning to people. Draz asked me if I knew what was bothering me, and I do. My ex-husband is a real turd, for lack of a better description, and he is taking me back to court some 5 years after our divorce, to reduce child support. He was a very abusive man and, I'm convinced that being mean to me and harassing me has always been his drug of choice, just like food was mine. Now, I fear that there is trouble in his current marriage and he is reverting to his old ways to comfort himself. You get the cycle. Anyway, our summer visitation is from Friday to Friday, but my vacation is Sunday to Sunday and now (although every summer before he was fine with a change) he has decided that we can only stick with what the court has set forth and he will not accept a change in the schedule. Of course I talked to him about it, before I booked and he was fine with the dates. I know this man and I know that if I take my kids and return on Sunday, that the cops will be waiting at my house when I get there (ala Jerry Freakin Springer)! So, I'm so stressed out about this. My husband gets frustrated with me, because he says that I still let the man affect me. I can't help it, I try really hard, but the man has hurt me in so many ways for a really long time. I was married to him for 17 years. I was afraid of him and spent most of my days on constant watch. I walked on egg shells, never knowing if the next thing I said was going to be the wrong thing. I am not the same woman that I was then. I know that with certainty and I live a life now that is safe and happy. I never dreamt that I could have the kind of life that I have now. I know that for the first couple of years after I left my first husband, I must have been experiencing post traumatic stress disorder, because my life with him was very much like war. My day to day maneuvers were like making my way through a mine field. When I look back on my life with him, it makes me extremely sad that I didn't care enough about myself to get out, it wasn't until he put my children in danger that I got serious and got us out of there. It makes me sad that I couldn't see how badly I was hurting my children to let them live that lifestyle too. It all makes me sad....and I hate that his bullying is having any affect on me at all. I especially hate that it has affected my current husband, who doesn't deserve to feel any of this. So, I don't know what to do, I am afraid of the way he will treat my kids when he doesn't get his way. It all just makes me sick. So, there you have it, my drama in a nutshell. I'm just waiting to here from my attorney and hopefully will find some solution.
I hope everyone has a great day, and thanks for all of your support and kindness, you mean so much to me.