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Friday, November 18, 2011

What the heck is going on with me?

I wish I could put my finger on what has been going on with me. I'm feeling scattered and unmotivated...still! I'm not feeling like blogging. I have been reading your blogs, that hasn't changed. But...I am definitely struggling with moving on to the next stage of my weight loss journey. I have been lazy. I have been lying to myself. I can't just eat without tracking and lose weight at a decent pace. I'm a slow loser to begin with, but I'm also honest enough with myself to say that I'm not doing what I need to do to get the rest of this weight off. Today I got on My Fitness Pal and tracked my food from yesterday....OMG, no wonder I'm not losing, it's a miracle I've been maintaining.

Fluffy's post today about her journey was just what I needed to read, she talked about putting the work in, doing what you have to do. I went back and read a bunch of her posts from the beginning of her journey. It made me feel better. I've met Fluffy...so, it's hard for me to even imagine her being fat. She looks like the picture of health, she's active and confident. She just looks like a person who's never had to think twice about her weight! But in the beginning she was like me, depressed about being fat, feeling hopeless, not having the energy to lose weight one more time knowing that it will come back with more! She has even had some set backs. She is in a place now that most of us can only dream about. And today, she's what I'm using for inspiration to do the right things. I'm going to follow the band guidelines today, I'm going to track my food today and I'm going to move my body. Because if I do it today, I might do it tomorrow. I'm going to continue to pray the something clicks with me, that if I act like I'm committed, I'll become committed. Hope with me!
I'm glad it's Friday!!!

I don't have the energy to do BYOC today, but my favorite thing about Thanksgiving is Cornbread dressing...and family of course.

Big Hugs!
T

10 comments:

Stephanie said...

I'm glad that you are getting the inspiration you eneed from Fluffy. She truly is one who looks like she never had a weight issue in her life! You can do this, Theresa. Sometimes we are all like a camera lens. Over time, we get shifted out of focus and all it takes is a simple refocusing. If you make it in your mind to be a mountain to overcome, it will look like Mt. Everest. Consider this a small hill to climb, we all know you can do it, you know you can do it, so tackle things one small bit at a time and savor your successes. That lens will be back in focus before you know it! I have faith in you! :)

MandaPanda said...

Isn't Fluffy just fantastic! I'm jealous you've had the opportunity to meet her in person. I think we all go through this. I haven't been doing what I need to be doing either. I've been doing BETTER but not GREAT. And if you have other things going on in your life, it just makes it that much harder to stay focused. We'll get there. I know we will.

Laura Belle said...

I know it's hard to get back into things, or find the motivation, if you're in a funk, but you HAVE to do it! HAVE TO! You have to muster up the energy and FORCE yourself to get out and exercise or to put down that Little Debi and grab an apple instead. It's horrible. And hard. Really hard.

But once you force yourself to do something healthy, then force yourself to do it again and again and again, I promise you will be back on track and wonder how you ever got side tracked in the first place. SO DO IT! Force yourself!

speck said...

I believe you are going to get back on track because you are determined and have perseverance.

:)

Lap Band Gal said...

Isn't Fluffy's posts so AMAZING?!? I'm so glad that you are finding some motivation :)

Sandy Lee said...

Go read the Band Superstar posts and get a little more inspiration. They are real people with the same struggles as the rest of us. And they did it. Wait til you read the next one. Hint: it's someone whose name is in one of your comments (not me!).

trisha said...

oh theresa i am so sorry you're waging this inner battle right now... it's such a hard one to conquer. we've all been there. big hugs to you and KNOW that you ARE able to do this, you ARE worthy of losing the rest of the weight - and it's SO possible!! :)

Jacquie said...

I find her very motivating too! The holidays are so freakin hard on so many levels. My plan is too maintain my weight to the beat of my ability and deal with the rest later. Myfitnesspal is a godsend....if nothing else, seeing is believing and it helps me make better choices next time. Hang in there T and know that we are all in this together!

Kristin50 said...

Theresa you can do this you can! You are so amazing in your own right. You are one of my motivators. I have met you both, and you have such grace, and style.

We all have these inner demons that try to sabotage our journey but you know what needs to be done. I am so glad that Fluffy was able to give you the motivation that you needed to get your head back into this game.

Hugs!

Beth Ann said...

Awww...Fluffy rules! And so do you! So many of us are struggling to lose more. It is hard work and until you/I want to work that hard, it is good that we have the band to help maintain. I hope you find the strength to do it, because I KNOW you have it!!!