It's called personal responsibility. At least that's what I'm going to call it. I was reading Gilly's post about tracking and blogging and doing all those things that kept us accountable and losing in the beginning. Things that have fallen by the wayside for me. As I said in an earlier post, 2012 is the year that I plan to get to my goal. It shouldn't be that difficult to lose 40 pounds in a year, right? Well, if last year is any indication of my skill in that department, it may prove problematic. However, the thing that I do know is; as sad as it is...I need to lay of the wine for a while. I love wine, I just do, but it is loaded with empty calories and it is not helping me reach my goal. So, it's time to do something about it. Why does that not put a smile on my face? The other thing I need to do is to continue to track my food, to do it honestly and to make a real effort to get my protein count up. It's something I struggle with, especially when I'm having a tight band day. The third thing I know I need to do is recommit myself to exercise. I know that it is the difference for me between losing and just hanging in the same spot. So, today, it starts...I will let you know how it's going.
On another note: today is the 35th anniversary of my mother's death. If she were alive she would be 85! I can't imagine what it would be like to have her in my life at this stage. I miss her, I wish that her life had been different, that I hadn't lost her when I did. I wonder what my life would have been like if I had my parents with me during my teenage years. But, I am who I am today because of all those experiences and at this stage in my life, I'm starting to like that person more and more each day.
I had a really nice weekend, John went deer hunting and the kids were with their other parents, so Friday night I spent time with my sister, Saturday we went to see "Iron Lady" it was great, Saturday night we had a girls night, then Sunday I finished up all my housework and enjoyed hanging out watching football with John, it was a wonderful relaxing weekend. I'm looking forward to a week of good choices. Anyone with some inspiration for me...feel free to share it!