Happy to report another pound down. I'll take it! I can hardly believe that I am just 2 pounds from 60 down and less than ten from onederland! I am pleased with my progress no matter how slow it is. Although I've had some freaky tightness the last couple of days, this is the first time that an uncooperative band has resulted in a loss, so...yay for the loss.
In other news, my husband is crazy!
And, yesterday I went to group therapy. I had been in therapy for a couple of years after my divorce and had gone to group therapy weekly for close to two years. It was a great experience for me and I really learned a great deal. Now the center has started a maintenance group for people who have graduated from the other program, kind of a continuing education program, it's just 90 minutes once a month. I went last night and it was a great experience, although quite different from the experience I had in group before. No one in this group is really in crisis, we are all just living and trying to implement what we learned when we were in crisis. It was so refreshing. I think I needed the experience to let me see just how far I've come. I grabbed my old journal out of my desk drawer at work when I was on my way out the door, a journal I haven't looked in in 2 years. When I opened it, I was surprised to see two pictures of myself. One picture is me at 14 or 15 years old, posing in a bikini top and a pair of shorts, the second is me singing karaoke at The Cat's Meow in New Orleans and I can't tell you how shocked I was by the former. I plan to scan them and blog about my feelings tomorrow. In any case, I had the pictures in there because at one point I had been journaling about my body issues, about coming to grips with my food addiction and about forgiving myself for destroying my body, a precious gift that I never had an appreciation for. I feel really good about where I am at this point in my life. I feel like I have made great strides and although I had to get an appliance installed in my gut to help me to get my food issues under control, I have still done a great deal on my own and I'm proud of myself. I still struggle with self acceptance, but looking back on my old journal, I realize just how far I have come. I'm thankful for that, I'm thankful for you all, because you have helped me grow through your support and shared wisdom. What a blessing.
I hope you all have a wonderful day!