LilySlim - Weight loss

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Being tight has its rewards...


Happy to report another pound down. I'll take it! I can hardly believe that I am just 2 pounds from 60 down and less than ten from onederland! I am pleased with my progress no matter how slow it is. Although I've had some freaky tightness the last couple of days, this is the first time that an uncooperative band has resulted in a loss, so...yay for the loss.

In other news, my husband is crazy!


And, yesterday I went to group therapy. I had been in therapy for a couple of years after my divorce and had gone to group therapy weekly for close to two years. It was a great experience for me and I really learned a great deal. Now the center has started a maintenance group for people who have graduated from the other program, kind of a continuing education program, it's just 90 minutes once a month. I went last night and it was a great experience, although quite different from the experience I had in group before. No one in this group is really in crisis, we are all just living and trying to implement what we learned when we were in crisis. It was so refreshing. I think I needed the experience to let me see just how far I've come. I grabbed my old journal out of my desk drawer at work when I was on my way out the door, a journal I haven't looked in in 2 years. When I opened it, I was surprised to see two pictures of myself. One picture is me at 14 or 15 years old, posing in a bikini top and a pair of shorts, the second is me singing karaoke at The Cat's Meow in New Orleans and I can't tell you how shocked I was by the former. I plan to scan them and blog about my feelings tomorrow. In any case, I had the pictures in there because at one point I had been journaling about my body issues, about coming to grips with my food addiction and about forgiving myself for destroying my body, a precious gift that I never had an appreciation for. I feel really good about where I am at this point in my life. I feel like I have made great strides and although I had to get an appliance installed in my gut to help me to get my food issues under control, I have still done a great deal on my own and I'm proud of myself. I still struggle with self acceptance, but looking back on my old journal, I realize just how far I have come. I'm thankful for that, I'm thankful for you all, because you have helped me grow through your support and shared wisdom. What a blessing.


I hope you all have a wonderful day!


Big Hugs!

T

9 comments:

Jacquie said...

Beautiful post from a beautiful woman! Congrats on the loss! I want to see my scale drop by tomorrow....I am looking for 10lbs...what do ya think?

Rachel said...

I can so relate to this post and forgiving myself for destroying my body with food addiction...My journey involves breaking these patterns and restoring my body. CONGRATS you have done great and you look beautiful.

Stephanie said...

You should be proud of yourself. You have done so much for not oly your physical health, but your mental health, too, that you should get a standing ovation. I'm glad that you are seeing the beautiful woman we all met and loved in Chicago and are embracing this new life we all have been given!!! Hugs!

~Lisa~ said...

I join in the standing ovation, and I love this post!

Darlin1 said...

Great post! Can't wait to see the pic's-

Read said...

What a great post. I think it's so great that you have that old journal to go back and look at - to see just how far you have come! What a gift. And how cool to have a next chapter group to go to - just because the crisis has past doesn't mean we can't still learn and grow.

And yes. Your husband is crazy. My new favorite quote ever "...former wife stuffed in the corner" OMG I nearly spit my water all over my keyboard.

Beth Ann said...

Your husband is crazy, but darn funny!

Sigh. Body issues are so hard to overcome. I'm so glad you are making progress. I know that I'm getting better too. It just seems like a very long process. I look forward to your thoughts on the photos.

Miss Vickie "The Queen Bee" said...

I love you and your husband! I am so happy for you and your weight loss! I know how difficult it is and you are doing a great job. Can't wait to see you. Are you guys coming this way for vacation?

DiZneDiVa said...

I hope to find a group like that when I move... I have come a ways on my mental food issues but I still have a ways to go... Beautiful Post!