Why is it that hormones are ruling my emotions and my band?
These are some hormone related concerns I have. Feel free to chime in if you care to:
There appears to be no rhyme or reason to the hormonal fluctuations of this body of mine.
There appears to be no rhyme or reason to the fluctuations in tightness of my band, due to the above mentioned hormones.
These fluctuations in both, make me feel...well,a bit pissy. So there. I have been a bit emotional the last few days, and unlike most times when I'm emotional and weepy and can eat a horse. This time I'm emotional, weepy and tight as can be. So, this confuses me. Just when I think there's a pattern to the madness, there's not.
One of the things about being banded that was the hardest thing for me to get used to, was wrapping my head around the fact that I could still live and thrive on a very small amount of food, compared to what I was eating before. I think that was really holding me back early on in this journey. The next thing that has been a real issue for me is knowing the warning signs of a stuck episode in the making. Last night I made a crawfish pasta dish for my son. I had a tiny dish, the kind that your sauce or dressing comes in at a restaurant, because I had been stuck several times during the day and was trying to avoid it. I just had the sauce and crawfish, no pasta. I ate it very slowly. I chewed very well. I got stuck. I waited and waited, trying so hard to let it pass, because I had gone about a week without a PB and was really feeling that I was on top of things. It just wouldn't pass, so I PB'd. I hate to do that. I think if I had stopped one bite before, I could have avoided it, it's always that last bite that puts you over the edge, but I don't know it til I take it. I'm taking it easy today, I still feel very tight, but have been successful in eating today, small amounts of food, but I haven't been sick. I guess I need to come up with a formula for how to know what bite should be my last, it has never been a particular cup size or dish like some of you. Just trial and error for me.
One last band related thing... is it just me, or does it take three separate PB's before it's over for you? Inquiring minds want to know!
I hope you all are having a great day, tomorrow is Wednesday, my kids go to their dad's for the remainder of our Spring Break, I will miss them. The hubby is going hunting this weekend, so I'm going to take this time to re-center myself, have a little girl time with my peeps and just relax. I'm looking forward to it.