I'm having one of those days...a day where I'm feeling a little off kilter, kind of blue, but not really and well...I don't know how to put it in words. I feel a little bit sad, but not really, I feel a little bit nostalgic and weepy. Yeah, that's it and though I know much of this is hormone driven, apparently this feeling began day before yesterday when I was dusting pictures in a cabinet in my hallway. My son's latest football picture is without a frame, so I opened the cabinet below to see if there was a frame down there. In the cabinet was a basket with a bunch of pictures in it. I took it out and sat on my bed, I started going through the pictures. First of all, I love pictures, secondly, I lost most of my pictures in the Hurricane Rita flood. I think I blogged about this before, but when I lost all of my pictures of my children when they were small, I was so hurt, I felt like I wouldn't have those memories and all, but little by little, friends and relatives started giving me pictures of my children, they would say..."I was cleaning out a drawer and I had doubles of these" Slowly, I gathered pictures of my kids when they were small, those pics were in this basket, along with pictures that my ex-husband had found in our old house, pictures of me from college. So here I am, looking at these pictures of me in college as a young, very thin woman with my whole life ahead of me. Then there are pictures of my babies and of me as a very fat, very unhealthy looking, very unhappy woman. It was painful, my husband came in the room and he was looking at them too. I was so embarrassed. I can't help but wonder how I became that woman. How did that happen to me? My husband was looking at a very fat picture of me and he said you look so much better now, not just better as in prettier, but better as in healthier. It was true, I was not the same person then, I was killing myself...one bite at a time. Now when I think back to that time in my life, I have trouble believing that my life is the way it is now, I'm so much better, I'm so much healthier and for sure...I'm so much happier. A picture is worth a thousand words...true. I will share some of them with you soon. I hope everyone has a great day.