I'm sweating and I have tears rolling down my face. I have to say that I'm more afraid of my husband knowing my weight than anyone else. I know that's stupid. He loves me as I am and he's loved me much larger than I am. Anyway, I'm just going to bite the bullet and put it out there. I think it's important for me to do things differently this time, so ...I weigh 216. My pre- surgery weight was 266 and that was not my heaviest. Okay, I didn't die. This is a huge step for me. Thank you for your kindness to me and for encouraging me to take this step and for saying that you support me either way. My weight has been such a source of shame for me, so this is one step in breaking the cycle of secrecy and shame. It is what it is.