Monday, January 17, 2011

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens....

bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens,
brown paper packages tied up with string,
these are a few of my favorite things.

And here are a few of my not so favorite things...
  • being told to be quiet
  • being told not to eat something or that I shouldn't have eaten something
  • someone who says "we" thinking you don't know they mean you
  • feeling inadequate
  • being laughed at, when I don't think it's funny
  • having my feelings hurt
  • being the kind of person who lets these things bother her

I just needed to get those things off of my chest. I may look like an ox on the outside, but on the inside...I'm fragile. Not always, but often times, I'm fragile. I hate even writing that down. I think that part of the difficulty of my size is that it truly belies my interior, that at times is child-like and bruises easily.

I really am having a wonderful day, but some events from the weekend have made me stop and think about a few things. Emotionally I have made great strides in some areas, in others not so much. The above would fall into the "not so much" category.

I hope everyone had a great weekend. Happy Monday folks!

Big Hugs,



Milk & Noodles is noodles in milk with butter and salt & pepper. It's kind of like mac and cheese minus the cheese. Weird, I know.


Joey said...

I feel like it's taking longer for my mind to catch up with my body. I may always be a fat kid on the inside. But that makes us more sensitive and empathetic people. And just heard a study about the fact that sensitive people are more successful. So yay! We win!

Jacquie said...

I could've wrote that list myself. I had a not too great weekend too!

To Band or not To Band? said...

I have that little, shy, quiet girl inside me too but sometimes I hope that I will be in a robbery situation where I can have the excuse to punch someone in the nose!

Miss Vickie "The Queen Bee" said...

Sorry you had such a rough weekend. Honestly, you are such a sweet, kind and funny person, I can't imagine anyone being mean to you! Just know we love you so much. ;-)

Drazil said...

Awww....a realization weekend like mine....with the health gain comes some mental pain I guess. Hang in there.

Linda said...

I thing we can all be surprised how quickly our emotions can sneak up on us when we feel hurt. I hope you realize we all have these fragile times and you are not weird or overly emotional.
P.S. - You never look like an Ox.

~Lisa~ said...

Sorry about the rough weekend, and you're no ox.. You're a beautiful woman who has feelings and emotions.

(((hugggssss))) to YOU!

Lonicera said...

I certainly identify with "fragile". When my feelings are hurt I often feel spitting angry underneath because the other person's crassness was so easily avoidable. But the fragility means I put up with it and don't tell anyone. Stupid. However I think it's the vulnerability in us that makes us interesting and maybe even loveable too. Don't you keep hoping you'll get stronger after each episode?
Thank you for your brilliant comment on my blog...

Lap Band Gal said...

Hang in there... BIG HUGS! :)