Monday, Monday....now that I have you singing oldies. I want to address my Monday blues. The weekend was fabulous, lots of festivities, still in the Mardi Gras mode and the Saints are going to the Super Bowl, so how could I be blue? This journey that I have begun has caused me to do some serious thinking. And on Monday morning after a weekend of overindulgence, I'm always ready to get on the diet bandwagon. This morning as I was contemplating how to be a good girl today with my food choices, I realized that although I ate too much over the weekend, I didn't really enjoy it. I feel like I don't get the kind of pleasure that I used to out of food anymore, but that doesn't deter me from overeating. I wonder why? When I quit smoking and decided to try a cigarette again, it made me feel bad, and so I didn't have a desire to do it anymore. But, with food, it makes me feel bad, I don't get the kind of comfort from it that I once did, but I continue to abuse it. I don't like this about myself. I'm worried that the band might not make that much of a difference for me. I'm worried that I will somehow screw it up and not lose the weight. I've read that others felt this way before they were banded. I've also read that when restriction is right, people don't even think about food all day. I can't imagine what that would be like. I want so badly to get this part of my life under control, sometimes it feels like it's so far out of my reach. But then again....the SAINTS are going to the Super Bowl. Maybe good things do come to those who wait! I'm over my blues. Have a great Monday.
Tessie
5 comments:
I feel the same a lot. That food is still a major issue, but maybe that will change when I have restriction.
I try to ask myself everytime I eat if I really am hungry or it's just habit. Doesn't always work, but I'm trying.
Though, they aren't my team, I have to root for your Saints in the Superbowl! Beat those Colts!!
I really don't think theres one person out there who didn't feel like they might fail the band once it was in - BUT as you can see by reading lots of blogs - we all seem to have success in one way or another. I do think it will help you feel more in control once it's in. It stops and make you think more than anything. And you will take back your life :)
Happy Monday to you too!
I think many of us have the same concern pre-banding. I'm only 1 1/2 weeks post, but after the first few days of pre-op through to now food isn't foremost on my mind. Sure, I look forward to my meals but I don't need copious amounts to be satiated. Not that I could anyway, the band certainly does its job.
Congrats on your team making it to the Superbowl!
I struggle with food still. I want so badly for it to make me feel good, or feel something at least.. but it doesn't do that for me anymore. I don't think I will ever get over this, but I am still successful with my band. I just had my 4th fill today and, up to this point at least, I haven't really had restriction. For some reason making the decision to have the surgery has made this fight worth fighting. I still have bad days where I abuse food. But most of my days are good. You can do this. I would suggest you consider seeing a therapist. I see one weekly and it really helps me deal with my food issues.
Thank you all for your comments!
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