My first real battle with head hunger!

Well, certainly not my first battle, but my first real struggle since being banded. All day yesterday, I was in the mood to mindlessly eat. Visions of yummy foods kept popping into my head, unannounced and uninvited. It was a struggle all day to keep from running to the store for a snack. Then, last night, I was really hungry at rehearsal and by the time I got home I was headache hungry and a bit anxious about what to eat. I decided to fix a half of a grilled cheese sandwich one ounce of chips and some watermelon. I started making my sandwich and popped a piece of crust in my mouth. Wouldn't you know it, stuck! I was stuck for about 20 minutes and then got a terrible case of the hiccups. So, it was another 30 minutes or so before I could eat. Once I had eaten, I wanted something sweet, this is the first time since banding that I have really just wanted something sweet. I think it's because I've had quite a bit of fresh fruit in the last couple of days and fruit tends to make me hungry, especially for something more sweet. So, I ate an Oreo. Yes....you heard it I ate AN Oreo, as in ONE! I have to call that a victory, no matter how I slice it. I have never in my 47 years eaten one cookie, at least not that I can remember. One cookie was always followed by more and then by the inevitable wave of remorse, guilt and self loathing. You know, the cookie was good. I'm glad I had it, it satisfied that nagging need for a little sweet. And then, guess what happened? I watched a little TV, brushed my teeth, washed my face and went to bed. I didn't even give it another thought. I didn't dream about drowning in Oreos. I didn't cry myself to sleep. And, when I woke up this morning, it was not the first thing that popped into my head. I wonder if this is what normal people experience when they want a cookie? Truly amazing. Have I told you lately that I love my band?

Happy Tuesday folks.

Big Hug,

T