LilySlim - Weight loss

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

My first real battle with head hunger!


Well, certainly not my first battle, but my first real struggle since being banded. All day yesterday, I was in the mood to mindlessly eat. Visions of yummy foods kept popping into my head, unannounced and uninvited. It was a struggle all day to keep from running to the store for a snack. Then, last night, I was really hungry at rehearsal and by the time I got home I was headache hungry and a bit anxious about what to eat. I decided to fix a half of a grilled cheese sandwich one ounce of chips and some watermelon. I started making my sandwich and popped a piece of crust in my mouth. Wouldn't you know it, stuck! I was stuck for about 20 minutes and then got a terrible case of the hiccups. So, it was another 30 minutes or so before I could eat. Once I had eaten, I wanted something sweet, this is the first time since banding that I have really just wanted something sweet. I think it's because I've had quite a bit of fresh fruit in the last couple of days and fruit tends to make me hungry, especially for something more sweet. So, I ate an Oreo. Yes....you heard it I ate AN Oreo, as in ONE! I have to call that a victory, no matter how I slice it. I have never in my 47 years eaten one cookie, at least not that I can remember. One cookie was always followed by more and then by the inevitable wave of remorse, guilt and self loathing. You know, the cookie was good. I'm glad I had it, it satisfied that nagging need for a little sweet. And then, guess what happened? I watched a little TV, brushed my teeth, washed my face and went to bed. I didn't even give it another thought. I didn't dream about drowning in Oreos. I didn't cry myself to sleep. And, when I woke up this morning, it was not the first thing that popped into my head. I wonder if this is what normal people experience when they want a cookie? Truly amazing. Have I told you lately that I love my band?

Happy Tuesday folks.

Big Hug,

T

16 comments:

Justine said...

Congrats on eating just one cookie!! I've not managed that yet, but I consider stopping at two or three to be a victory when once I would have eaten six or seven (or more) and not even realised I'd done it.

Kerri said...

Great Post!!! One cookie...awesome!! I struggled with some serious head hunger all last week. So much so that I fell off the wagon several times. Not happy about that! Ugh! Anyway...I am back on track and doing well. I can't wait for the day that I can't eat ONE cookie and be satisfied with that! Awesome! Congrats.

Stephanie said...

Mmmmmm, donuts....

great job on the ONE oreo. Those are my weakness. I can't stop with just one so you are amazing for being able to do that. I've been sitting here for a 1/2 hour trying to decide what to do for lunch and seriously fighting the head hunger! You've got the power, girl!

Pamela E. Williams said...

I was thinking about mindless eating yesterday. I wondered how I would control that once banded. It may be easier than I think....I hope.

1 oreo is a great feat. You did what I know I couldn't do. 1 would have been followed by 9 or possible half the pack.

Janice said...

One Oreo only? That is an accomplishment! I can't even keep them in the house. Way to go!

When I want something sweet I have a sugar free pudding (chocolate or vanilla) with cool whip lite topping. That really hits the spot and it can last a long time!

Pie said...

My head hunger kicked in within the last few days too. I don't like this one bit! I've been eating just because it's "dinner" not because I'm hungry. And I've been eating all of my food and not listening to my band! I echo the congrats on your ONE Oreo. You know everything that goes into that cookie is designed to make you want another one...and another one...and another one?! Talk about evil! Way to fight back!

Nella said...

Happy Tuesday baby!
Same here...its amazing how the band has changed my brain!

DB said...

This is a great post, Tess! I would definitely say you were victorious. I had a lot of demons calling me out yesterday too wth?

amandakiska said...

That is FANTASTIC! Great job. I had my first head-hunger issues a few weeks ago. All I could think about was food and lots of it. I didn't indulge and it went away. Funny how that happens. Who knew?

Bonnie said...

Sounds like you totally won that battle. Congrats!

Fiona said...

One cookie, well a girl can dream. Well done! I am doing fine at the meals but the grazing is still killing me. I have yet to master one cookie but its early days. You are an inspiration.

Sam said...

Well done on only eating the one cookie. Those things are so hard to stop at just the one.

Amanda M. said...

Head hungery is annoying especially around a certain time of the month... ugh! You're brave to eat bread! I can no longer eat it. Oooooh... the pain!

Cindylew said...

What is it with everybody this past week???? Including me!!!
For me it happened last Thursday and Friday and it was senseless eating for the first time since being banded. It took me a couple of days to get back on track but it was a really scary time. I really understood the stories about some bandsters who lose some initial weight and then they're done. Not comforting at all...can't wait to love my band too.

Donut Diva said...

I got my first cookie from Mcdonalds today since my surgery 6 months ago. I had one and then like an hour later I had the other. Thank goodness my daughter ate the third.
Weird how I get stuck on one bite of salad but I have no problem getting a cookie down

www.bandedup.blogspot.com

Joey said...

That's amazing. Seriously. I have flirted with this feeling a little, but have yet to master it. Sigh.