My self talk was much more positive this morning. Thank you for your kind words and pep talk. I know things will be okay, deep inside I know it. I'm just, well...having a bit of a pity party I guess. I think Amanda is right. I think it has a lot to do with the post show let down, that's always been tough, I mean you work so hard for something and then it's just over. And I know it's also hormone related. But, I thank you all for being so supportive of me always, even when there's a funk in the air.
When you have weight loss surgery, it's hard not to be impatient. We spend so much time and effort trying to get approved for the surgery, so much time and effort preparing for the surgery emotionally and physically and then, it's here, it's done, you loose a chunk of weight all at once and then reality sets in, this is not going to be as easy as I thought. The band is only on my stomach, not my head, which, let's face it, is a big part of the problem. Then on top of that, take away my one sure stress relief and what do you get? Well, I guess you get the life of someone who's clean and sober, feeling things when the feeling happens, dealing with things in a new way, learning day by day how to be me, only me...free from my food prison. (That's a little dramatic, even for me!) I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I'm wondering if this is how "normal" people feel? I think it will get easier as things progress, I'm just 4 months out.
I get so impatient, I want to be 40 pounds down at 4 months out, not 33 and holding. But 33 is respectable, it's 8.25 pounds a month, I'm 47 with the metabolism of a woman who has yo yo dieted through 3 decades, IT IS WHAT IT IS. I'm living my life, I'm enjoying my self and I'm getting smaller, who cares if it takes me 2 years to get to my goal as long as I get there, right?
(See how positive the self talk is today!)
I hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday, you are the best!