LilySlim - Weight loss

Thursday, July 29, 2010

You are my sunshine

My self talk was much more positive this morning. Thank you for your kind words and pep talk. I know things will be okay, deep inside I know it. I'm just, well...having a bit of a pity party I guess. I think Amanda is right. I think it has a lot to do with the post show let down, that's always been tough, I mean you work so hard for something and then it's just over. And I know it's also hormone related. But, I thank you all for being so supportive of me always, even when there's a funk in the air.

When you have weight loss surgery, it's hard not to be impatient. We spend so much time and effort trying to get approved for the surgery, so much time and effort preparing for the surgery emotionally and physically and then, it's here, it's done, you loose a chunk of weight all at once and then reality sets in, this is not going to be as easy as I thought. The band is only on my stomach, not my head, which, let's face it, is a big part of the problem. Then on top of that, take away my one sure stress relief and what do you get? Well, I guess you get the life of someone who's clean and sober, feeling things when the feeling happens, dealing with things in a new way, learning day by day how to be me, only me...free from my food prison. (That's a little dramatic, even for me!) I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I'm wondering if this is how "normal" people feel? I think it will get easier as things progress, I'm just 4 months out.

I get so impatient, I want to be 40 pounds down at 4 months out, not 33 and holding. But 33 is respectable, it's 8.25 pounds a month, I'm 47 with the metabolism of a woman who has yo yo dieted through 3 decades, IT IS WHAT IT IS. I'm living my life, I'm enjoying my self and I'm getting smaller, who cares if it takes me 2 years to get to my goal as long as I get there, right?
(See how positive the self talk is today!)

I hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday, you are the best!
Big Hug!
T

13 comments:

-Grace- said...

Love the positivity!!! You are doing great Tessie!

Ashlylin said...

I am having my own pity party and your post helped me! I know it is irrational but sometimes I feel alone with my struggles with the band. Naturally, including myself, it is harder to post about struggles or weakness. THANKS for lifting me up today.

Kristin said...

Oh Tessie, I certainly feel your pain with the impatience and the head hunger and all of it. We're all in this together, and that always makes me feel better. Hang in there.

LDswims said...

You are my sunshine, too! Always bringing a smile to my face just by coming around and leaving a comment.

I'm glad the positivity is winning today!

And I think the impatience is good, personally. If you weren't impatient...you might just be staying where you are. That impatience will drive you to your goal....

Dinnerland said...

I think I disagree with LD up there.... patience is a virtue, grasshopper. You're doing swell and don't be down on yourself. The best thing about WLS is that it makes this process doable. You WILL get there!

Andrew said...

I love the blogger world and the ladies and gents I have met...but on a down side they can put us in a comp that we do not need to be in... 33 in 4 months is great.. I have 54 in 6...thats great but I feel I m a little behind the " team" because so many are doing better........

We are ALL going great and that is what is important....A loss is a loss and is great...

We can all get to where we need to be ...EVENTUALLY...Keep smiling we are all winning :-)

ChristineKingery said...

I love this: "The band is on my stomach, not my head." So true. Great phrase.

Christine
www.phoenixrevolution.net

Sherry said...

So I'm 33, 4 months out and only 26 pounds down. Shouldn't my metabolism be helping me?! Take comfort in knowing you're doing better than someone younger than you...

kagead said...

I'm 41, 6 weeks out and have only lost 10 lbs. I have not lost one single pound since 2 weeks post op and my first fill was a big one, so believe me, I feel your pain. I also know that we can do this!!!! It may be slower than some, quicker than others, but nevertheless, it will happen for us. :)

Linda said...

I'm glad you are feeling sunnier today. 8.25 pounds a month is great - I'm way slower than that. You are doing great!!

Cindylew said...

The sunshine looks great on you.
Hang in there...you're doing great.

Lonicera said...

I think for bandits patience is the most consistently underrated resource, and most of us don't have much. We've been given the key to future happiness and we want to open the door RIGHT NOW.
My Dad used to sing "You are my sunshine" to me when I was little, and I always regarded it as MY song.
Remember to e-mail me your address so I can send you the book.
Caroline

Amaris said...

So glad you are feeling a bit more positive. "It is what it is" is one of my favorite sayings. It keeps me real and more accepting of what's going on around me.

Great that you are living your life, now, instead of waiting for some magical number. YOU ROCK!