Monday, January 31, 2011

Monday why did you come so soon?

It's Monday and I'm so tired. I'm just physically and mentally worn out. Today is one of those days when I just wish I could still be in bed and it's noon. I have a whole bunch of my day still ahead of me.

On Friday we had visitation for my cousin, so as soon as I got home I whipped up supper for the kids and went to the funeral home for a couple of hours. Then Saturday, we had more visitation and then the funeral, the eulogy went very well and I was honored to have been asked to speak at the funeral. It was a beautiful service, but it's just so sad. Then after the funeral, off to my sister's to wait for everyone to come eat. We have a huge family, my cousin who passed is my cousin on my Dad's side, my Dad was one of 9 children and my cousin was one of 11 children, I have 26 first cousins on that side of the family. My oldest first cousin is 82 and I'm the youngest at 48, we cover a lot of ground. He was buried in our family cemetery that is in a very rural area. So, my sister and I had lots of time to get things ready for all the people who would be coming later. Lot's of people showed up and it turned into an all day event.

I had to leave a around 5, because after all that, my husband and I had a Mardi Gras cocktail party to attend. It was fun, but I was just not in a very good mood to be going to a party. One thing I must say, is that when you are normally a very jovial person who's expected to be the life of the party, people notice if you're not all happy. One of my friends actually looked at me and said, you're grouchy, and I was. I guess I should be sorry for raining on other's parade, I just was having a very sad day and you know, I think I'm entitled every once in a while to just feel the way I feel. I am not entitled however to be rude to my husband just because I was not feeling chipper, and I was. I'm sorry for that. Anyway, we ended up having fun.

Sunday, my boys had to serve at 7:30 mass, so I was up and at it early. It was my husband's birthday, our birthdays are 2 days apart. I tried to nap before noon, that didn't work out too well and then I got up and fixed tacos for him, his favorite meal. We had a nice day, it was quiet, but nice. We sat in the hot tub and relaxed and then went to bed. I was really tired, and fell asleep right away, but I woke up and had trouble getting back to sleep and didn't sleep well the rest of the night. I don't know what's up with me lately but I just don't sleep well anymore. I guess that's old age. Tonight, I'm going to take a Tylenol PM and hope for some real rest.

So, that about covers the Monday morning Debbie Downer post. I hope everyone is doing well. Have a great day.
T

11 comments:

Tina said...

I hope you feel better-I had trouble sleeping once upon a time. It improved as the weight came off and I think because my activity levels went up. Losing family is hard..and you had a good reason to be grouchy.

xxxooo

Anonymous said...

When you have a lot on your mind and heart, it makes it a challenge to sleep well. So sorry about your cousin. Everyone has a bad day once in a while. Take care and I hope you sleep well tonight!

Shannon said...

O hun anybody would have a bad day when losing a loved one. You are allowed to be "grouchy" if you need to be. Try a good cup of tea before bed, there are great ones out there to help you sleep.

Kristin said...

I'm sorry about your cousin, and about the rest of it too. Here's hoping for a good night's sleep and a good day tomorrow.

Amanda Kiska said...

Glad you made it through. Hope you get some sleep.

Nella said...

i had a ton of energy this morning and now its 3:09 and GONE!

Joey said...

Oh, I'm so sorry about your cousin. Sucks. You'll get your energy back. It's peaks and valleys.

trishajo said...

I hope your day tomorrow is a little better Tess!! Hang in there and try and get some GOOD sleep :)

~Lisa~ said...

I am sorry to hear about your cousin - he and all your family will be in my prayers...

And Monday's have a way of doing that - coming when we're not in the least prepared for it! Damn Mondays...

I'm glad to hear that you got through the weekend - I hope the rest of your week is better!

Alison said...

So sorry for your loss.

Gilly said...

Condolences, sweetenss. I'm a little late on this one, but I wanted to express my sympathy on your loss. xo