LilySlim - Weight loss

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

5 months out

Today is my 5 month bandiversary. I'm really glad that I got the band, but am feeling a little bummed that I'm not losing faster. I know that sounds bad, but it's true. I'm down 37 pounds. I put the pencil to the paper and that's 7.4 pounds per month that's good right? Then why do I have so much doubt? Probably, because the last 2 months have been a bear, the bouncing scale is about to make me go crazy. I've had so much fluctuation, I swear one day last week the scale went up 8 pounds and then down again the next day. I know I need to take a break from the scale and just step away from it, but I'm obsessed! I swear I weigh my self every time I go in my bathroom. I want to be free from this current obsession and free from my fat. I feel hopeful sometimes, but sometimes I feel downright scared that I'm not going to get this weight off. I want to be successful with the band. I want to be at a healthy weight, but sometimes it feels unattainable. It's been so long since I was thin, 21 years! I can't even remember what it was like, what I looked like. This week I'm going to make a point of finding some photos of myself thin so I can try to wrap my head around the idea. I know I'm holding myself back, but I don't quite know how to change this mindset.
It's Wednesday though, and I like that. Take it easy.
Big Hug!
T

17 comments:

Alison said...

Happy anniversary, I'd forgotten that we were banded on the same day.
I'm exactly the same with the scale, it's an addiction that I can't break.
37 pounds is great, well done.

Sally Hamilton said...

When do you go back to the doctor? Your medical team will help you get over this hump. They want to help you. If it's been 4 weeks or more since your last adjustment and you're not losing, call them up and make an appointment. Jumping on the scales all the time - I think that is an indication that you've put weight loss high on your list of priorities. When you reach your goal and things level out, you'll start to get comfortable about not jumping on the scale so much. Hang in there.

Jess said...

You are doing great! I have been banded 6 months and have only lost 28 lbs. You are ahead of me!

Mary said...

Hey girl! I just posted a pst similar to this!!! I totally understand! I think 37 lbs. is GREAT!!!

Jacquie said...

You are doing great Tess! I am a day a head of you and I am only down 32 lbs. I think we are just slow losers! We will both get there, no worries!

Band Groupie said...

I went back to look for you...I'd lost 41 at this point, so not a whole heck of a lot different (and I'm pretty sure I hadn't hit my first plateau yet). Keep the faith sister...this ain't another diet we're on...it's FOREVER...that's lifestyle...the WL will return, I promise. If it makes you feel any better I'm still up about 5 pounds...see, like I said lifestyle...FOREVER. I'm not sweating it and neither should you...do the right things, believe your worth it, and the WL will come. ((hugs))

Joey said...

It might not feel like it right this second but you are doing great!! I'm a slave to the scale too, but it makes me face the music...so it works for me. Tess, Chicago can't get here soon enough so we can high five, hug, do the hustle and repeat. XOXO

Amanda M. said...

Step away from the scale! Your weight will fluctuate throughout the day. How about get someone to hide the scale from you and only ask them to get it once a week? Or put the scale in the trunk of your car? You're doing great though!!!! Keep it up. :)

Stephanie said...

You are doing wonderfully and I am in the same boat about being a scale hound. You are going through everything we all have gone through. I';ve been all over the place this last month, but I finally saw a drop after a 3 week plateau. Try not to stress too much and know that as each day passes, you are getting so much healthier. You are really awesome, so don't underestimate yourself. :) Hugs to you!

Linda said...

WOW- has it been 5 months? I think you you're doing great. I'm a scale addict too, but it's OK - it works for me.

Cindylew said...

Hang in there doll...you're doing great at 5 months.
Give yourself a break and try not to be so hard on yourself.

Angela said...

I am right there with you. I was banded middle of April and I am just waiting for the big life changing moment to happen and the weight to just fall right off. I remember back to my pre op diet and I lost like 20 lbs in 2 weeks. The kind of weight loss I am experiencing right now is slow and tedious and slow...and tedious, but all I have to do is look back at my before picture for inspiration. You're not alone!!!

Jenny said...

Happy bandiversary! I feel you on the loss rate. I feel that way too-like I should have lost more, but we're not done. You've done awesome so far and you will continue to do awesome!

DB said...

Happy Bandiversary! This band is such an emotional rollercoaster - both good & bad! I think you are doing great and just love your blog and the kind comments & encouragement you leave for me. Hang in there - we will be smokin' hot in no time!!!!!

Kerri said...

Ok, I am nearing my 4 month bandiversary and have only lost 34 pounds. I feel like a loser, not in a good way. Hang in there....I have to believe that it will get better for both of us!

Stephanie said...

Monday was my 6 month aniversary and I have lost 56. I wish it had been more, as it only averages to 8.3 lbs a month, but then I think about it. I am 56 lbs lighter!!! Celebrate and embrace your accomplishments. You look great, you feel better, I'm sure and you are losing at a healthy pace. I think that is worth a round of applause!

The Banded Lady said...

Thanks for the post (and all the commenters too). I have hit my first stop in weight loss and I am only a little over a month out so it feels good to know it starts and stops.