Sounds exciting, I know.... let me just try to explain:
- The excitement part: I'm so happy that my plateau finally ended! I am 10 pounds away from being thinner than my husband has ever known me! Also, there are so many really successful banded people out there sharing there stories, Amy W. just made goal. I feel like I've read her blog for so long and watched her struggles and successes, she really makes me feel like I can do this too!
- The nervousness part: I'm 10 pounds from being the thinnest my husband has ever known me (a weight that I stayed at for maybe 3 hours, and then the climb upward began.) I also am nervous and concerned about getting a fill. I feel pretty confident that this is a good place for me right now, but I read so much about others having way more of a fill than I do and I keep second guessing myself.
- The hormonal part: Well that goes without saying, look at me funny... there will be tears.
- The growing pains part: I'm anxious. I feel good about my weight loss, people are starting to notice the changes, but I want to be further along. I'm going in October with my husband to Ohio to meet some of his old friends. I want to be thin when I meet those people. I know I can lose 10 pounds by then and when I was at that weight last time, I felt amazing. I remember getting to my current weight before and feeling amazing, why am I having so much trouble appreciating the journey and enjoying my successes in the here and now?
I know I sound crazy, but it's all trapped in my head and it's got to find it's way out. Thank you all for your incredible support. I feel like a lot of folks in blog land are going through some difficult transitions too. We're lucky to have each other. Happy Wednesday guys!