This is John and I this Wednesday for date night
I'm down 38 pounds and in 9 pounds I will weigh less than my husband has ever known me to weigh. When we met, I was really big. After Hurricane Rita, I decided that I really needed to change my life, I was miserable about my weight, I was unhealthy and now living in a tiny trailer with my boys while my home was being repaired. I felt so very hopeless. I joined Weight Watchers, again and successfully lost about 80 pounds, I felt great about myself, I felt like I was winning the battle. I was in love and my home was almost finished and then I put on just a few pounds. When I got married in December 06, I weighed only 2 pounds less than I do right now, but on my wedding day I felt beautiful. I was so completely happy and I was happy with myself at that moment. But then, here I was, now married, crazy happy and adjusting to my new life and one thing led to another, many wonderful meals, dinner parties, trips, adventures, many new stresses came into my life too, another Hurricane, being displaced again only now with 3 more people and 2 dogs, neck surgery, life, more life and voila I had put on half of the weight I lost, more at times...I spent my time yoyoing, dieting and then splurging, back and forth, back and forth.
What baffles me so much is that I was looking at my wedding photos and remembering how good I felt and I realized that I only weigh 2 pounds more today than I did then...why does it feel so different this time? I guess that this is not new territory, I've been here before. The last time I was here, it was new to me. I have 9 pounds to go to get to a place that I haven't been. I'm anxious to get there. I hope if feels as exciting as it felt to break through those barriers the last time. I'm trying really hard to give myself a break and be happy with the progress, to enjoy the journey and trust the process. It's hard though, but something I think alot of us struggle with.
In any case, I'm excited to go to New Orleans this weekend with my honey. I hope everyone has a wonderful Labor Day weekend. Thanks for all of your support. Big Hug!