LilySlim - Weight loss

Friday, August 12, 2011

Crossroads...

I feel like I'm standing there, wondering which way to go. I'm really trying to be a big girl about my food and WW, I'm still tracking my points and exercising, and I'm trying not to weigh every single time I pass the scale! Well, I weighed again this morning and that 3.5 pounds is still hanging on. I had really just assumed it was because of the exercise or water gain or a thousand other things, but it is still there. I'm a slave to the scale, it deeply affects the way I feel about myself and I really hate that. I can be feeling on top of the world and hop on the scale and all of that changes with one little upswing. I'm starting to wonder if I shouldn't have gotten the unfill. I'm feeling good again, so I suppose I've forgotten how miserable I was when I couldn't eat anything healthy. I just have these moments when I get overwhelmed and I think that a healthy weight is something I'll never be able to achieve. I guess I'm hormonal, I keep randomly crying today. My youngest will be starting High School on Wednesday, and I guess I'm just having one of those days, I'm feeling old and fat. Time to go look at some blogs and see before pictures of my heroes like Amy W., Catherine and Stephanie, that always makes me feel better.

I'm staying the course til next Wednesday's weigh in, if I'm still up, I'm gonna pull my hair out!
Have a great weekend.
Big Hugs!
T


14 comments:

Melissa Wolf said...

Tessie, hang in there. Being able to eat good healthy food is your foundation...everything good will flow from there, including weight loss. We're around the same age and I have a son starting high school in two weeks, so I really get where you're coming from. You already look like a successful "after" picture to me, girl. You're beautiful! p.s. I'm not banded yet but from what I've read, the less filled folks do better overall...I mean, the goal is still be able to eat and enjoy real food, just less of it and less "head" eating, right? Just my observation. I'm planning to be a "looser, not tighter" bandita ;-)

MandaPanda said...

Just keep your chin up and keep doing what you're doing. The scale will catch up. I promise.

Jacquie said...

I agree with Manda, keep doing what you are doing....I hate the f'in scale too and I so understand your feelings about how it makes you feel. Drink tons of water if you arent already. Most of all, hang in there.

Laura Belle said...

Aww, Honey you'll be fine. Everyone has those days. Or weeks. It happens. Life happens. Just keep working toward your goal and eventually those numbers will come down.

I've been at the same weight basically since I started this 'health' thing in Jan. Technically I've only lost 3 lbs. Frustrating! To say the least. I want to pull my hair out all the time, but then again, half the time I do it to myself. I know I just need to focus and buckle down. And have patience!

We'll do it. I know it.
{HUGS}

Angela said...

You've got this! Just keep doing what you're doing. Your body just hasn't caught up with your head yet!

Dawnya said...

Tessie Rose...you are a beautiful, loving and awesome woman. The scale is just trying to steal your glory. You will meet your healthy weight goal. You will survive this little set back and the next thing you know...you will be posting pictures of your skinny arse. LOL

Hang in there sweetie. You can do this. We are all here to support and love you in the process.

Stephanie said...

Theresa, Do you remember when it seemed like I was the perpetual Mayor of Plateauville? I was so frustrated. It sucked. But YOU WILL PERSEVERE. I really think you underestimate yourself at times. I would love to have an ounce of your talent and personality and you have been so successful to date! You're NOT the type to give up and thats what I know and love about you. Screw the scale. Do you FEEL better? Because sure as all get out, you look fabulous!

Linda said...

Your accountability plan will show results, but sometimes the waiting is the hardest part. I feel like I'm floundering getting my last 15 pounds off, it comes in waves sometimes I'm good and then I'm not.
You'll do it - you've accomplished so much already. XOXO

kagead said...

I wish I could hug you! I am so sorry you are struggling. My only advice (and I keep telling this to everyone) is don't be so hard on yourself and STAY OFF THE DAMN SCALE. I'm exactly the same as you- it sets my mood for the whole day. It took forever, but I finally broke the habit and I am so much happier for it.

Let yourself be sad about your kids growing up but don't ever think of yourself as old or fat. Don't give up. We're all here for you!

Read said...

The scale sucks and can suck that life out of you - Perhaps we could work together to not weigh in for one whole week or maybe no more than 2 times in a week.

Don't give up. you're doing all the right things and it sounds like you've got other stuff going on in your life that both affect your emotions and probably your water retention - hormonal and your baby is going off to high school - both of those things can fuck with the scale. Perhaps John should take the scale away from you again. I could text him.... hmmmmmm :)

Cece said...

You are singing my song, sistah ! Doing the right things, stupid-ass piece of plastic scale not cooperating ... but we BOTH can persevere ... we are smarter than the scale (and much better looking !)

Camille said...

Don't be so hard on yourself. Your body is holding onto weight for dear life, but eventually it will let it go just as it has before. You look great! See you soon!

Miss Vickie "The Queen Bee" said...

You know, I am a slave to the scale too. I tried to stay off of it for a while, but then I get lazy about food and exercise. I'm sorry you are struggling. It WILL come off. Can't wait to see you!

Andrea said...

I know it can be overwhelming to think about how far you still have to go. Just stick with daily and weekly goals and focus on those and not how far you still have to go. I read this quote this morning and it's been sticking with me all day.
"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step". - Lao-tzu, Chinese philosopher