Okay, so I'm a little more than 7 months into this journey. My weight loss has not been fast by any means. But it has been steady and I am making progress. I'm starting to get back into some clothes from a few years back when I had lost a great deal of weight. I'm feeling pretty good about where I am. However, I must say, that reaching these weights has been a little less exciting this time around. It was much more exciting last time. I am very close to being below my lowest from the last go 'round. I'm wondering if things will get more exciting as I break new ground? Today I'm wearing a jacket that I haven't been able to wear in quite some time. I remember when I bought it a few years ago, I wore it and I felt like I looked average in it. I mean, I didn't feel huge in it, it was a great feeling. I remember walking up to the pharmacy the day I got it and I was surprised by my reflection in the window. That hasn't happened to me yet this time around. I have had some NSVs though, and I need to pay more attention to them, because I'm spending way too much time worrying about the scale! At our favorite date night restaurant, I sat on the patio in the "most un-ass-friendly patio chairs in the world!" and, to my surprise, it was much more ass-friendly. I call that victory. I weigh less now than I did when I married my husband and I am only 3 pounds from weighing less than he has ever known me to weigh. I'm just constantly surprised by the fact that I don't feel...well...less fat. I still feel fat, probably because I am still fat, but in the past, I have felt thin during the weight loss process. Maybe that's why I've always stopped short, because I started feeling better about myself and lost the sense of urgency to lose the weight. I don't know, it's something to think about, though.
I want to thank you for the wonderful comments about my blog on the Marie Claire article. I truly appreciate all of your input and your understanding. These last couple of months have been filled with deep thoughts and soul searching. I hope everyone has a wonderful day. Thank you for reading and for sharing your thoughts with me. It means so much to me.
Big Hugs!
T
9 comments:
I know just what you mean about "less satisfying this time around". I am at a weight that I have been at before. It is a good weight and I feel good but I would think I would be SO much more excited. I am not. I am not sure what will get me excited, but the fact that I am over a year out and still losing is pretty freak'n good! Keep it up girl!
I feel that way sometimes too... I don't feel any smaller than I was. Some people see it and some don't. When I put on clothes that I haven't worn in a long time I can tell, but otherwise I still feel fat. And like you say... it's because I still am! hahahaha
I have seen your pictures and just marvel at how regal you look. I don't know how "less satifying this time around" feels because I have never really tried hard to lose weight but I'm sure that with the NSVs and just finding joy in who you are right now will get you to where you need to be.
Hugs to you!!
Tess, I have the same feelings. One thing I am certain of, I have never been able to keep committed for this long, it does give me some satisfaction!
I still feel fat too. In the back of my mind I thought if I lost the weight I'd get Hiedi Klum's body. It's still my body.
I think once you are below your lowest you will really start to get excited as you say breaking ground...
XO!
I think this must be fairly common, because I'm in a similar frame of mind. I think it's cool that you're just a few pounds away from being thinner than your husband has ever seen you, though. That's a great milestone.
Hang in there, you'll get through it. We all will.
Total NSV! The un-ass-friendly chair. Good work.
I'm trying to focus on everything BUT the scale!
Honestly, you look great. I can say that because I saw the real live you!
Now you will have to keep trying chairs to see if there really are uncomfortable ones in this world. It's fun discovering clothes in the closet that now fit, but I will admit some look a bit funny, especially those big shoulder jackets! I now have 3 bags full to send to Salvation Army. My friend says to keep them in case I gain the weight back. No way. Don't want that reminder.
Do you know - i think there is always "that" number that we need to get to to validate our weight loss. Making it to places we have been before is soooo not satisfying. For me, it's that double digit.
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