Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Disturbing dreams...

Ooohhhhhhh!

Last night I had many strange and disturbing dreams. The first one even made me wake my husband up, because I could see a spider dangling down from the ceiling right over me. It really freaked me out. I then went back to sleep and had a series of disturbing dreams. I didn't sleep well last night and today, I'm feeling haunted by them. In one of the dreams, I dreamt that someone had given me a purse with a wooden ring for a handle and that I had slipped it on my wrist, suddenly it began hurting my arm, the purse was supper tight and was around my elbow, and somehow also around my neck. I struggled to get it off and when I woke up I felt like I was choking. I got up and went to the bathroom and then took a sip of water, I choked on the water and was stuck, it would not go down, I had to get up and go throw up the water. When I got back in bed, I still had a weird heavy feeling in my chest, like I was still kind of stuck on the water, but then it made a strange gurgle and I felt relief. It was all very bizarre. Yesterday was a rough day as far as food goes, I had a terrible stuck episode and PB at lunch time and then last night got stuck on the first bit for supper, I stopped and waited it out, but it was so difficult, I ended up just having a glass of milk for my supper.


The band always amazes me with a tight day one day and loose one the next. I haven't quite figured out a pattern yet. This morning when I woke up, I took another sip of water and it did not want to go down, I took my coffee real slow and it was fine and so far I've been able to eat today, but super slow and tiny, tiny bites, and very small amounts. I'm assuming that I'm swollen from the bad PB yesterday, so I'm just going to continue to take it easy.


I still can't believe I have so long to go before I can weigh again. It's starting to really freak me out. I'm feeling anxious and nervous and I'm picking myself apart in the mirror. I'm gonna do this though, and I sure hope it turns out okay. Have a wonderful day folks.
Big Hugs!
T

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

You poor thing! That is so bizarre. I hope you sleep better tonight and you can eat something!

Joey said...

Stay strong! You can make it. I hope you are feeling better these days both mentally and physically. I love you, lady!

Read said...

Wow, that doesn't sound fun at all. I'm sure you're right about being swollen and your subconscious probably came up with a way (unpleasant though it may have been) to wake you because you were too tight.

I hope you sleep perfectly peacefully tonight!

Kristin said...

Theresa, those dreams sound horrible. Dreams like that really do bother me for hours afterward.

I hope you're feeling better; I know how miserable it is to be too tight. Thinking of you...

Amaris said...

Hope you get a good night's sleep tonight. I've been wrestling with the too tight/kind of loose phenomena myself, so I totally relate to what you are saying. Take care!